Td pagi, ditinggal Dad pergi waktu lagi mandi, bangunnya jam 9 sih :D
Keluar kamar mandi, masuk kamar Mom, LHO? kosong? Tanya Sis, ou est ma? (French, where is Mom?). Sis jawab "udah pergi bareng Dad."
YAH???

Abis sarapan, liat dompet, duh... ga ada uang pas buat taksi! pinjem ke sis sambil minta tolong telponin.
Nunggu setengah jam! pdhl tinggal jalan kaki ke Buncit cari taksi! *eh? sama aja sih! setengah jam jg sama nunggunya*.

Sampe ktr, satpam2 nanyain "Telat yaaa?? Kok ga sama Bapak?" AIH!!!

terus...
Lea, my dear, I think My Attentions to him is SO OBVIOUS.
According to Nie, my BestFriend, He knows! And he is just trying to be nice to me for some reasons, one of them is that he doesnt want to break our relationships as friends.

Well, hearing My Nie's words, broke my heart again for sure. I did cried once again, but now I'm fine.
I did decide to tell him, but... when will we meet? For his work is so busy that he even doesnt have time for his Mom!
He works at one Four-Stared Hotel in Jkt, no holidays in a month! Once he get holidays, it is just 2-3 days! and that was used for SLEEPS!
Can you imagine how busy he is?

So... I've decided to love him with my own way... :)

Serba salah

Aku ga bisa banned V walaupun dia mengirimkan banyak sekali postingan Flame di forum HarryPotterIndonesia.

Anak ini bener2 menikmati role-playingnya sebagai anak Slytherin, sehingga dia dengan mudahnya menyerang anak2 lain.
Bukan berdebat sehat kan kalo dia lebih sering menyerang orangnya daripada postingannya?
Aku liat anak2 lain jg udah mulai ga sabar sama dia.
Kemaren sebelum dia menyerang aku, aku udah niat mau banned sebelum yang lain kemakan serangannya.
Tapi dia udah nyerang duluan, jadi aku batalin niatku itu.

Kalo aku banned dia, itu bukan lagi karena kesalahannya, tapi udah jauh lebih dari itu.
Aku udah tercemar dendam pribadi, karena dia udah nyerang aku secara personal.
tapi kalo ga dibanned, anak ini keenakan dong..

Betul-betul serba salah nih...

Ignore this Posting.. :D

Cuma mau nyobain Smiley lagi

Aching!

It's been a month!
My STUPID BONES are aching!
every now and then, it begins to aching!

Hihihi... payah ah..
ngomel meluluk!

hmm... kl ga ngomel, ga bakal hilang nih sakit..
payah emang...

so.. Ignore them.. PLS???

ARRRRRGGGGHHHH

MASIH STUCK DI KTR!

DADDYYYY...
PLS LET ME HOME NOW!!!

it's over..

I'm not going to sms him anymore...
I told him on my last sms that I wont budge him again...

and you know what?

IT HURTS!
IT HURTS SO MUCH THAT I CRIED BY MYSELF!
(Quietly off course, I dont want Mommy knows about this)

But..
oh my..
I'm still hoping him to be mine.

We've known each other ever since we were baby, even before we were born.
as our mothers are best friends eversince before they married.
Our fathers become best friends too...
He and his family moved to Kalimantan when we were 3 years old and havent met till we were 16 years old.

I've loved him ever since we've met for the second time.
It's been ten misrable years to hide my feeling towards him.

I ... feel sad and empty right now...
But, I'll be fine as usual...

Scared People Off

Well well..

*sigh*

Aku tuh memang ga bs punya temen ya?
Bakatku (Sixth Sense/Instuisi) sering menakutkan orang-orang yg ada di sekitarku.
aku sering ngomong sesuatu yg memang terjadi pd saat itu jg, bukan di masa depan, tapi SEKARANG.
Too often, in fact.

I use my instinct on everything; Chattings, Emails, Daily Life, and so on.

Like yesterday, I was chatting with someone who stays in bdg. I said something that clearly seen in my mind, and he said : "How do you know That?" or "Hey, I'm wearing that!"
I simply smiled and said : "I just knew it." or "Sixth sense never wrong".

And the result came out quite Clearly : HE IS AFRAID!
And you know what make it worse? I JUST KNEW IT without him saying anything.

So I said to him : "Oh God! dont tell me! You are afraid too! You are AFRAID of Me too!"
(I can see him hestitated) and he answered : "Well... Yes... I am."

GEES...

Lucky Ronald Weasley...
he doesnt aware of his talent on Divinations and Instuition, People dont aware about it too.

Meanwhile me?
I'm too aware of it.
I dont mean it to scare everybody out of my life.

Hey... I'M STILL HUMAN! I'M NOT A GENIE OR SOMETHING!

*sigh* I need to find someone that has a strong mental to be my Friends.

Hari ini masih pusing...
Kemaren malah ga ngantor nih.

Gila aja, pulang dr Bdg ga bs tidur bgt! Bolak-balik di kasur, akhirnya pindah ke sofabed-ku.
Jam 3 baru bisa tidur. yah bobonya cuma 4 jam :(
ih, AMPUN deh...
Bangun2 malah PUSYING BERAT.

Aku bilang sama Mom dan Dad, aku ga mau ngantor soalnya pusing.
Mom lgsg marah, "harus ngantor!" :(
Dad : "ya udah, kamu di rmh aja. tidur, istirahat."
Thx Dad..

Seharian di t4 tidur dah!
Terus agak sorean, pusingnya udah lumayan, aku buka email, forum dan ym.

Chatting bareng IDGmail, ngobrol soal kemaren sabtu (kita kopdaran).

Waktu sabtu, aku, Yufi dan Sis ke Oh Lala Dago jam 5, mau kopdaran sama IDG Bdg.
Dtg2, kok ga ada orang? Ya udah, kita pesen minum dan kue, terus duduk nungguin.
sms bundhoot : "Bun, blm ada oraaaannggg.."
bundhoot : "udah ada Audriel kok"
*celingak celinguk* mana?
ga lama, dateng Deden dan Oki. kita ngobrol deh...
Audriel ternyata ada di depan oh lala! celingak celinguk sendirian gitu deh... poor Audriel.

terus dateng Jay dan Mira, lgsg duduk di meja ujung, tanpa say hai or hello.
akhirnya Bundhoot dateng!
ngobrol2, ternyata yg duduk di meja lain Idg juga! Irfan (dan istri?)
sama jg ga nyamperin.

AIH! Kalo tau bakal dicuekin rame2 gini, mending jln2 ke t4 lain deh! :p

Jam 7 kita pamit pulang, krn udah ditungguin Ortu di Dapur Asia.
di sini kita makan2 Ultah-nya Sis ke 22.

sms-an sm Bundhoot, Alhasil diomelin Parents gr2 ketawa2 :D
terus waktu bangun hr Minggu, cek HP ada sms dr "no tak dikenal"
pas buka, Ha? Jay sms minta maaf karena nyuekin, resmi bgt deh! LOL
aku diemin dulu, ga bales.

Ya Ampun.. sisanya sms dr OKI!
Dari ngalor ngidul gitu, terus ketauan maunya apa! Hihihihi... dasar!
*relaks ya say.. aku ga bakal bilang2*

Duh... abis makan, pusying-nya kambuh.. X(

pengen pulang.....

It happen again!!

I'm DOWN!

GRRRRR....

lagi moody.. sebel.. down.. angry.. ALL THE BAD TEMPERS are HERE!
tinggal nunggu yg nyalain sumbunya nih...
dan BOOM! Explode! Blow my top!

and then...
relax once more...

STAY AWAY FROM ME, YOU SMOKERS!!!

I HATE SMOKERS!

YOU MADE MY ASHTMA COME BACK AGAIN!

HARD TO BREATH WHEN ASHTMA ATTACK!

GOD, FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT!!!

Bad Feelings

Felt something bad happens, but I dont know what...
It is terrible to feel it!

Mostly, when I felt this kind of feelings, it has anything to do with my nightmares.
But... I dont even have a dreams last night.
My sleep was tight that I dont remember if I dream or not.

After that Shooting on TV7, I had a nightmare and it happened in different way.
Here is my nightmare :
I saw someone in TV7, a girl, saying : "ADUH! ADUH! AU!"
I came to her and asking : "Kenapa? Bisa kubantu?"
She didnt say anything, Just wailed.. (a banshee?)
Everytime I touched her, She screamed even harder... like she was in great pain.
Somehow I just Knew that She .... (apa ya? REMUK... Squashed?) like an egg being squashed.
It was not shown on her body, but it was her bones..
All of her bones were Squashed!
She didnt say anthing!
But somehow, again, I just knew that she asked for my help..
but WHAT? How can I help her?

I woke up that morning, feeling misrable.
Thinking about the dream.. 1 night and 2 days..
and then...
When I was in my room, chatting with friends on the net...
While still thinking about my dream, I saw Metrotv displayed a News :

MENARA TV7 RUBUH, 15 RUMAH HANCUR, 3 ORANG MENINGGAL

my first reaction was blank.

It happened! Again!
NOT AGAIN!
NOT AGAIN!

Felt it again...
I wish today's sense just a faulty sense of mine...

Udah lewat Magrib (Jam setengah tujuh malem) dan Aku masih di KTR!

Dad kalo ada rapat, pasti aku disuruh bengong nungguin...
Bulukan deh!
Experience said : If you got a meeting, I got stuck in this office until 7-9 PM!
mana ktr ga ada istilah Lembur!

Pls dong Daddy sayangggg...
You always say : "if You go home now with Pak Uku, Whatabout me?"
Whatabout YOU??? WHATABOUT ME???
You talked and laughed with your Partners
AND I??? Getting stuck for 2-4 HOURS with NOTHING TO DO???
Oh Come ON!

Kalo ada rapat2 gitu, aku boleh dong pulang duluaaaannn..
kan Pak Uku bisa balik lagi ke ktr...
15 menit gitu!