WBD

hmm...
lumayan, walaupun sepi (banyak stand yg baru diisi hari sabtunya) pdhl WBD buka dr Kamis.

Selama di sana, kok ihp pd tegang semua sih?
Walaupun tak dikatakan, aku tau kok kalo banyak yg marah.
I could feel the negative emotions eventhough nobody say anything.
Eventhough (almost) everybody acted like nothing happen.

3 hari ke sana, aku terpapar emosi negatif gitu, ya akhirnya drained.
Hari minggu, tidur seharian jadinya.
Hari ini juga masih capek berat.
ditambah lagi Daddy yg emang capek abis pulang dr China kemaren...
HUAH!
Menjadi2 dah!

Butuh counter euy....

Are you take side with me?

One day, you come to me, telling me your story.
Ah, you have problem with someone...
And then....
You ask me this question of :

Are you take side with me?

BEUH! I HATE THAT QUESTION! I LOATH IT!

You know...
You can tell me stories, you can ask me some advices, you can pick which action I've provided is the best for you.

BUT!
DO NEVER EVER ASK ME TO TAKE SIDE!
Because I'm not taking side!
AND I WILL NEVER TAKE SIDE!

If you insist, then I will take side with the right one.
whether it's you or your "enemy".

You are my friend, but that doesnt mean your enemy is also mine either.

Aku paling sebel sama orang2 yg, kalo bermasalah dengan si A, ngajak2 temen2nya biar ikut musuhin si A juga. Pdhl belum tentu si A yg salah dan juga mereka (temen2nya) ga ada masalah langsung dengan si A.
Ih, beraninya main keroyokan! PENGECUT! CHICKEN!

For example, I have trouble with you, I'm going to sort it out with you. NOT WITH YOU AND YOUR "GANKS".
IF I couldnt sort it out with you, then I'm going to someone to GET SOME ADVICES. That's all!
I dont ask this person to sided with me. I cant... because I STILL HAVE MY OWN DIGNITY!

IF you ask me to be the middleman, fine, I can do that.
but if you ask me to take side. sorry, you have waste your time.
I need to stay in the middle, to have some points of views, to be free.
I need to listen to both side's stories, to get the whole picture, the big picture.
If I dont know the other side? then I'll show you your parts.
If I think you are doing right or wrong, I'LL TELL YOU THE WAY IT IS!
You are right? then I'll tell you : "You're right"
You are wrong? then I'll tell you : You're wrong."
NOT CONTRARILY!

Let's underline this :

I will tell you the TRUTH, no matter how hard for you to hear.
At least you heard it from someone who care.

You dont like what you heard from me? Fine... just walk away... you know where the door is.
I'm just telling you my point of view. I'm just giving you advices you asked.

Dont hate me for the bitter pill I I gave you...
Because the pills will cure you.
But hate me for the sweets I gave you...
Because the sweets will kill you.

Nekad

Kemaren Sabtu, aku ke undangan Ucoq&Dewi.
Dari rumah, pake rok batik, pake sendal pesta, dan ga lupa bawa sepatu sendal yg biasa.
Sampe sana... *sial* Rokku kepanjangan! keinjek terus!
Gajah2 pada tereak2 : "Cantik bgt!" Doh! MALUUUUU!!!!

Abis salam sama Ucoq&Dewi, makan2!
*sial lagi* Doh! ngambil kebanyakan, dan ngeliat yg lain udah selesai makan drtd, aku ga tega deh ngabisinnya.. huhuhuhu... Sayang jg sih... tapi Gajah2 imut itu udah nungguin aku selesai makan..
Dan selesai makan, foto2 deh sama Gajah2 dan Penganten.

Aku tau kalo abis acara Ucoq&Dewi ini, mau rame2 ke TMII dan Plumpang. Terus H-1 Plumpang dibatalin, soalnya Bunda Judith ga bisa.
Yaolo! Ternyata jadi jg mereka ke TMII! Aku TAK BAWA BAJU GANTI! Gimana dong?
"Ya udah, Trin, gpp kok!"
"Ikut aja deh! pls?? Ya? Ya? Ya?"
Henny bilang ke Pak Uku : "Boleh yaaaa??" ROTFL
HOW COULD I REFUSE THOSE PUPPY EYES??

Ya udah, aku & Pak Uku jln duluan, dan nyampe duluan di gerbang TMII, aku sms Henny : "Hen, aku tunggu di sebelah Teh Botol"
Henny bales : "HA? Udah nyampe???"
YAOLO!! Mereka pake nyasar dulu!!! Pantes lama!!!

Akhirnya Henny sms lagi, "Trin, lgsg masuk aja, tunggu di keong mas."
Di tempat parkir., mereka keluar dr mobil UDAH GANTI BAJU SEMUA!
DOH! *gaplokin satu2!* Ga ada sense of crisis-nya bgt siii??
YAOLO! MATEK GUE!
Jadi deh... aku SATU-SATUNYA yg ke TMII DRESSED UP!
Ribet2 sendiri, angkat2 rok batik yang kepanjangan itu.

Ya udah lah.. Salah sendiri pake nekadz ikut ke TMII pdhl ga bawa baju ganti!
Have funnnnn!!
Aku ga tau pada mau nonton apaan di IMAX, tapi yg jelas ga jadi tuh...
hihihihi... OQ n Partner dateng, terus Azil join jg setelah nyasar waktu nyari gedung t4 Ucoq&Dewi.

Jadi lengkapnya :
- Jipeng
- Deden
- Azil
- Heri
- Indra
- Lea
- Mbu
- Bundhoot
- Henny
- Adis
- Shinta
- OQ n Partner (sorry, Q, ga tau namanya)
dan jg yg cuma ikut sampe t4 Ucoq : Awan, Fahmi&Mia, dan Big.

Terus kita naek kereta gantung. Aku, Henny, Sinta dan Adis berempat satu kereta.
Sebelum naek, aku bilang "Gimana kalo berhenti di tengah?" Sinta lgsg TEGANG! hihihihihihi...
Di atas, kita kepanasan! huhuhuhu... GILA! PANAS BGT EUY! Baju dan Rokku mpe BASAH! Baru waktu muter balik, anginnya lumayan... sepoi2, TQ Windy..

Abis dr Kereta Gantung, haus.. haus.. yang lain makan (err.. atau minum?) Es Teler. Aku terpaksa cuma beli Aqua, baru sembuh dari Flu sih...
di tengah2 ngobrol, WESLY nelp Bundhoot! Hihihi... Bunda godain aja, "lagi makan Es teler", aku bayangin di sana Wesly nyumpah2 deh... ROTFL

Kenyang Es teler, qta ke mesjid, sholat, yg ga sholat nunggu di "borobudur".
Ngobrol2... Foto2 (eh yg ini sih nyaris setiap saat).



Liat Jam, WAH??? Jam 4 lebih!! GILA GILA GILA!
Jam 6 harus udah di acara lain! ya udah, pamit pulang, sementara yg lain masih nerusin ke Starbuck, *nagih Mbu, HOT CHOCOLATTE-kuuuuuu..... Kapan???*

Pulang2, mandi, terus siap2, sementara sodara2 mulai dateng.
Dan... ANOTHER PARTY'S GOIN!!
Dresscode : Black n White.
Theme : Surprise Party!!!

Hihihihi.. Emang udah dasarnya semua jahil, jd Si Ibu ga gitu kaget... "udah curiga dr pagi," ktnya waktu Pidato! ROTFL

Aduh!! ASYIK BERAT KEMAREN TUH!
Gila! Gue bener2 NEKAD ABIZ ke TMII cuma bawa 50RB di DOMPET! 30rb buat tiket masuk... beli Aqua 3rb. YAOLOOOO!! sisanya??? Buat TOL...

Heran, Kesambet apaan gue kemaren???
- Di Pesta Ucoq, makan ga abis!
- Ke TMII pake rok batik panjang yang keinjek melulu kalo ga diangkat.
- Duit pas2an! Habis pula!
- Dibayarin euy naik Kereta gantungnya :">

*colek2 Henny, Bundhoot, Sinta, Adis dan Lea... MUACH!

Rages of mine

I know I have never been able to be a good friend.
All I do is spoiling everything.
That's Why HE keep sending me "baddies" to be my friends.
Meanwhile the "goodies" are gone long time ago because they were hurted by me.
The Baddies? stay until they finish drinking the honey I made for them, and then left.

I realize one thing : the insecurity inside of me has made me a baddy.
My body languages keep screaming for "STAY AWAY FROM ME! or I hurt you again n again!"

May be I should close my doors, every single door I have, to avoid me hurt n getting hurted.
May be U think I'm stupid, chicken or, worse, Give up.
Anything U said is right. I dont care...

I dont care!
Thanks to U to teach me how not to care!

I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO SAY THAT!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT!
- Not caring,
- Leave whenever I want to,
- Not thinking about those people's Health, Happiness, Sadness, etc,
- Not trying to be a good company,
- Be selfish!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE DO THOSE!

But no...
HE The Almighty has never allow me to be a person like that!
I was made to feel the pains.
I accepted that.
I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT EVER SINCE LONG TIME AGO!
but Why people keep remind me to that?
Why people keep remind me of pains?

I AM WHAT I AM!
I AM WHAT HE MADE ME TO BE!

The Rages inside of me is getting bigger everytime I got hurted or hurt!

"Why did they do that?"
"Why did I do that?"

The same questions turn on and on for whole my life.
But through all that...
I have been wondering about these :
- Wonder why I am able to smile after getting hurted (tho' sometime I take time to recover)
- Wonder how I feel guilty for what they've done to me (by saying: it was my mistake)
- Wonder how I fell hard n get up again
- Wonder how I mirroring everybody.

Eventho I keep my rages, funny how it hidden when I'm on top condition.
Eventho I hid my insecurities, funny how it shows when I'm down

Why cant I be like you?
You are able to walk away like nothing had happened.
You are able to talk to them like nothing had happened.
You are able to leave without feeling guilty, NOT EVEN A BIT!
You are able not to think about your "victims".
HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?
I am wondering about people like these!

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YEAH YEAH!
I'M DOWN ONCE MORE!
WITHOUT KNOWING WHY!

Michelle

Michelle, ma belle.
These are words that go together well,
My Michelle.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble,
Tres bien ensemble.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
That's all I want to say.
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand.

I need you, I need you, I need you.
I need to make you see,
Oh, what you mean to me.
Until I do I'm hoping you will
Know what I mean.

I love you.

I want you, I want you, I want you.
I think you know by now
I'll get to you somehow.
Until I do I'm telling you so
You'll understand.

I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand, my Michelle.

Hihihi.. LOVE IT!
Used to listen to this on tape n mp3 of The Complete Beatles' Album.
hmm.. One of my fave songs of The Beatles.
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Lagi bingung...
Besok sabtu ada kopdar di Bandung dan di Jakarta.
Kampung Gajah or IHP?
Both are my precious ones. (hehehe.. a bit too much, really)
ah, pusing...
Let it be deh!