Here I Am, Come and Take Me...

I can't believe that it's real
The way that you make me feel
The burnin' deep down inside
The love that I cannot hide

I know it's you I need, baby
and it makes this world go round
I'm keepin' you in love with me, baby
Laying all my troubles down.

Here I am, baby. Come and take me.
Here I am, baby. Come on and take me.
Take me by the hand.
Ooh, show me. Here I am baby

It always ends up this way
Me beggin' you every day
A love that I cannot ask
You broke my heart in two halves

I know it's you I need, baby
and it makes this world go round
I'm keepin' you in love with me, baby
Laying all my troubles down.

Here I am, baby. Come and take me.
Here I am, baby. Won't you come and take me?
Take me by the hand.
Ooh, squeeze me. Here I am, baby
Oh, here I am, baby. Come and take me
Here I am, baby. Won't you come and take me?
Take me by the hand.

Ooh show me, show me what you can
Here I am, baby. Oh, won't you take me,
take me by the hand. Take me by the hand.
Ooh show me, show me what you can

Here I am baby. Won't you take me?
Take me by the hand. Take me while you can.
Here I am, baby.

A UB40 song

Aku nyanyinya : "Ooh Sexy, take me by the hand..."
Boleh dongg.... :D

Hey People!

Please teach me :

How not to care...

Blesssed yet Cursed

Aku diberi kelebihan sama Allah SWT : Sickness Invisibility. Yang terlihat oleh semua orang adalah aku sehat, lincah, segar, dsb, padahal aku sedang sakit pada saat itu.
Seringkali aku ketolong juga kalo lagi sakit tapi ada sesuatu yang harus diurus.
Gampang ngapa2innya, ga akan ada yg nyuruh istirahat karena terlihat lagi sakit.
Atau ... Yah, gampang bantuin orang2 lah! Alhamdulillah for that.

Tapi... A Bless can turnout to be A Curse.
Karena ga keliatan sakit, orang2 juga ga percaya kalo aku katakan sedang sakit. termasuk Mommy!
Minta ke dokter juga susah amit2!
Aku bilang sama Mommy, waktu Mom bangunin aku td siang, "aku lagi pusing berat." Dan reaksinya keluar kamar, pas aku tidur lagi : "BANGUN! Tidur melulu!"
Lha? lagi pusing berat gini!!!

And she started to preach again... "blablabla.. TIDUR TERUS!! NANTI MALEM KAMU MELEK LAGI! blablabla!!!"
Geez... Dan (once again) aku kepancing ikut tereak2 : "DIBILANGIN AKU SAKIT! GIMANA SIH??? MOMMY LIHAT SENDIRI KAN AKU MAKAN *nama obat, entar disangka ngiklan* TERUS???"
"GA TUH!"
*sigh*

Pls deh! aku makan obat itu selalu di depan matanya! Sehabis makan di meja makan! Masa iya aku mesti ngomong : "Nih liat nih! Aku makan obat!"? Udah duduknya hadap2an gitu, MASIH JG GA KELIATAN????
Kalo aku ngomong "nih liat nih....", dianggap nantang pula! Astagfirullahalazim!

Mommy, I understand you have another problems to think of, Tapi kalo sampe yg di depan mata ga keliatan... *speechless* I dont know what to do anymore!

I am Cursed rather than blessed, I think....

Ikhlas

Aku ikhlas bila diriku yang mengalaminya
tapi tidak bila mereka yg kusayangi mengalaminya

Aku ikhlas bila diriku yang terkena
tapi tidak bila mereka yang terkena

Aku ikhlas karena memang diriku terbiasa mengalaminya
tapi mereka tidak terbiasa

Aku ikhlas karena memang sudah terbiasa kena
tapi mereka tidak terbiasa

Biar, Ya Allah, cukup aku saja yang mengalaminya
Jangan mereka!

Biar, Ya Rabbi, cukup aku saja yang terkena
Jangan mereka!

Tidak!
Jangan mereka!
Cukup diriku saja!
Tak akan kupinta yang lain!
Biar saja kutanggung semua ini!
Untuk kupasrahkan kembali pada-Mu..
Jangan mereka yang menanggungnya...

MUACH!!!

Kemaren Malem Minggu, sebelum tidur, Mom bil : "Besok bangun pagi ya, kita ke TMII dari rumah jam 8."
HA? Ngapain?
"Nonton Sis nari!"

Pagi2 aku dan Mom ke TMII, "Cuma berdua, Mom? Daddy ga ikut?"
"ga, undangannya cuma buat dua orang". Oh, dikasih undangan juga.
Sampe di TMII, huaaaaa... Apaan tuh? Di pintu gerbang masuknya ANTRI! "Semua orang Jawa pada ke sini" jelas Mom. Oh, Gitu?
*grumbles* selalu tau paling akhir melulu soal beginian.

Acaranya Kirab Agung *duh, bukunya mana ya?*
Sendratari mengenai terjadinya perpecahan kesultanan PakuAlaman dan .... *duh, udah bad memory, bukunya ngilang pulaaaaaaaa!*
Sis penari latarnya bareng Azi dan Ditha, Ditha narinya bagus, sedang My Sis kurang perhatiin detailnya, jd kurang bagus :(

Abis my sis nari, aku dan Mom pulang.

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Td mlm nyaris ga jadi pergi ketemu Gajah lagi.
Mom&Dad mau kondangan, tdnya ga mau nganterin.
Akhirnya setelah tengkar dikit, aku dianterin juga.

Dan nyari t4 kost Lea susah :(
Akhirnya lgsg ke Cakewalk di tebet barat.
Tempatnya enak jg....
Huahahahaha.... sendirian deh! pesen salad dan minum, terus makan sambil nunggu.
Ga lama, dtg juga mereka!

Henny, Lea, Adis, Bundhoot, Mbu & partner.
Jay, Abi, Deden, Ivan, Indra, Naif *duh, siapa lagi sih?*

Ah, HAPPY BGT kalo udah ngumpul!
(aduh, kue! mau kue!!! NYAM NYAM!!!)

Ah, I must off now... udah jam 1 :(
MUACH Henny, Lea, Adis, Bundhoot
*miss you already*

Inna lillahi wa inna ilahi raji'un

Inna lillahi wa inna ilahi raji'un

I was awaken this morning, and told by Mom that Nini An, my Grand Aunty, was dead.
So we went to Meruya.

Waktu kita dtg, Nini baru mau dimandiin.
I saw her body being laid on her bed in her room covered with batik.
And I didnt sense sadness from others but a few...
I watched them people from my seat. They werent really sad.
Biasa aja gitu lho! Funny eh?

Not really, Nini An, yg menurutku baik walaupun agak galak, tidak dekat dengan cucu2nya sendiri. Dan mereka menerima kabar itu tanpa ada tangisan.
Ok, mungkin saja mereka malah merasa lega karena Nini(84 thn) udah sakit jauh sebelum ini, sampe saat2 akhirnya tidak bisa jalan, makanan lgsg dimasukin ke lambung melalui selang. Lega seperti yg aku rasain waktu Aki Papih meninggal dulu.

Tapi bukan jg, lebih tepat lagi karena tidak ada kedekatan itu.
I could sense it.

Ah, enough talking about that.

Nini An sayang,
Semoga Amalanmu diterima oleh Allah SWT.
Semoga Dosa2mu diampuni oleh-Nya.
Bahagia bersua kembali dengan Aki ya...
Kutitipkan salam sayangku kepada Aki-aki dan Nini-nini yang udah duluan di sana.
Assalamu'alaikum Ya Nini.

Sampai Jumpa lagi nanti tatkala Malaikat mencabut nyawaku...

OMG!

Dasar DUDULS!
Kemaren mau ngeblog, sebelum ol, aku tulis bahannya di Notepad.
Karena udah merasa aman, bahan dr hp yg udah dipindahin ke Notepad, aku hapus biar ga penuh2in memori.
Dan sebelum aku ol, my Sis minta pinjem kompie buat ol. Ya udah aku biarin dia ol duluan.
terus karena telkomnyet "kambuh" (Remote kompie doesnt respond blablabla), dia pindahin kabel telp ke notebooknya.
Dan setelah dia selesai, aku liat jam dan mikir ga mungkin aku maksa ol besok aja ol, dia nanya "Teh, kompie aku log off aja ya?"
aku (yg lagi nonton tv) jawab : "OK"

* * *

Setengah jam abis itu, baru inget kalo td ninggalin tulisan di notepad masih terbuka, entah udah disave atau belum.
Aku nanya dia lagi : "udah disave belum tulisanku td?"
Dia : "lah? mana kutahu?"
yeh...

Tadi pagi akhirnya aku cek aja, OMG! TULISAN GUE HILANGGGG!!!
*GRUMBLES* Mana yg di HP UDAH DIHAPUS PULAAA!!!!

IH! SEBELLLLL!!!!

Ini sebagian yg aku inget dari tulisanku itu :

Ah, Semarah apapun aku padanya
Tak sebesar rasa sayangku padanya

Ia ibarat racun yang merasuki darahku
dan merusak jantung dan hatiku
Sedang Racun harus dilawan dengan racun
Sama-sama merusak tubuh!

Namun sekeras apapun aku menghindarinya,
Tak bisa kucegah diriku mencarinya kala ia tak beredar dalam pandangku
Sekeras apapun usahaku menjauhinya,
Duduk-berdiriku selalu berhadapan, berseberangan, bahkan berdampingan dengannya.

Seandainya mungkin,
ingin aku kembali ke masa lalu
dan menghentikan diriku bertemu dengannya

Ah....
Perandaian pun takkan membuat waktu kembali
dan takkan membuat luka ini tiada.

Kini yang harus kulakukan hanyalah terus maju sambil mendoakan dirinya :

"Semoga dikau mendapatkan apa yang kau mau, selama itu baik bagimu..."

*ada yang lupa euy... :(

Ridho-MU kekuatanku

Bismillahi Rahmanir Rahim,
Ya Allah, ya Rabbi,
Aku menyadari kalo aku ga pantas untuk memasuki surga-Mu
Namun aku juga ga akan kuat memasuki neraka-Mu

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi,
Aku menyadari bahwa aku belum pantas untuk mendapatkan Cinta-Mu,
Namun KAU curahkan Cinta-Mu untukku begitu banyak hingga tak terhitungkan,
Walaupun aku masih begitu sering mengikuti godaan dia-yang-Engkau-kutuk
Walaupun aku masih begitu sering memaki-Mu karena banyaknya cobaan yang Engkau berikan.
Namun KAU tetap memberikan kesenangan padaku.

Maka Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi,
Berilah aku kesabaran, ketabahan, dan keikhlasan dalam menghadapi semua cobaan-Mu.
Jadikan semua usahaku dalam menghadapi cobaan-Mu sebagai penghapus dosaku.

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi,
Jangan biarkan aku menjauhi-MU
Jangan biarkan aku mencintai dunia fana ini
Jangan biarkan aku sendiri tanpa Cinta-Mu, Kasih-Mu, Sayang-Mu, dan Ridho-Mu.
Berilah semua yang kusayangi : hidayah, ridho dan ampunan-Mu.

Ya Malaikat,
bantu aku dengan doamu.
Insya Allah terkabulkan dengan bantuan doamu.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Kopdar Gajah n PestaBlogger2007

Bermula dari blog Jeng Enda, aku sempet pusing : Bisa ikut atau ga.
Dan akhirnya aku putusin IKUT! Samper Jeng Enda via ym, dan datenglah email itu :

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HORE!!!
Sempet mau nyablon kaos sendiri, biar lain sendiri :D tapi ga sempet euh!

Hari H-1 ngumpul2 dulu di Planggi bareng Gajah.
Aku dtg paling duluan, bok! Sesuai dengan sms Henny : "ngumpul di planggi jam 5! Bintang tamu : Dian Ina". NYATANYA??? Udah buru2 dari rumah (takut jam 3 in 1) ditambah macet, hujan dan MOMMY yg ngomel2 gr2 Dad nyuruh anter aku, Eh, sampe sana :

BELUM ADA YG DATENG!!
Gile aje, pd baru dtg jam 7-8! HUAAAA???? Pdhl aku bil sama Mom kalo selesainya jam 9! (Bener aja, baru asyik ngobrol, Mom sms berkali2!)
Hehehehe.. Dian Ina bilang : "terbukti ya Masset itu cewek!" :))

Yang dtg :
- Jay
- Deden
- Henny
- Sinta
- Indra
- Lea
- Jim
- Hky
- Tony
- Markum
- Dian Ina n partner

(duh, siapa lagi sih? tambahin dong kl kurang)

Dan datanglah Hari H-nya!
Pagi2 jam 9 dari rumah, dianter Dad (Dad mau rapat jam 10, katanya). Sampe di Blitz, Sembari nunggu Henny, aku liat di ruang Lift BANYAK bgt orangnya! HUAH! I thought I would be alone that morning for it was 9.15 AM!

Ga lama nunggu, datenglah Henny, dan Kita ke Foodhall dulu (Henny nitip tas punggungnya dan kado buat Baby Heri, Fatih).

Huahahahaha... sampe di foodhall, bengong... Lho? Foodhallnya belum buka! Duduk2lah kita, nungguin buka. Dan Ah, aku yg pertama tandatangani kartu buat Fatih ya.. :D :D :D I'm honored..
Setelah naro titipan, beli minum, naiklah kita. Sampe di atas... Hueee??? Udah banyak bgt ternyata???
Di sana, konfirmasi kehadiran dan dpt satu tas yg isinya : majalah HP, Kaos Nokia (Gede amat ukurannya? Lain kali sekalian hp-nya dong... XP ), CD Ilmukomputer, pulpen microsoft, mousepad PestaBlogger, Mr. Veetos.
Habis itu, ketemu Mbot (akhirnya ketemu jg ya kita?), Udhien (hehehe.. Yg kedua kalinya ya Qta ketemu, say?), GAJAH! (huee??? BUNDAAAA.... GUE BELUM KEBAGIAN KAWOS!!! Hiks! Mentang2 aku dah ansab! X( ). Sambil nunggu masuk, Henny nodong Gajah2 buat tandatanganin kartu buat Fatih. dan Aku ketemu juga sama Pitoh (Sekarang aku makin ngerti kenapa susah ngebayangin PITOH pake ROK!), Naive (nama lu siapa sih? masa "naive" doang?), Idban dan Gajah2 lainnya yg ga bisa disebut satu per satu saking banyaknya!
Beberapa pake kaos "NOBODY CARE ABOUT YOUR BLOG". (huaaa??? Sorry yeee... To me it's so... ANNOYING! Because I CARE!)

Lagi ngobrol2, ada yang bagi2 pamflet Blogger for Bangsari.
Itu lho... Nyumbang kambing induk buat dipelihara sama anak2 di desa Bangsari.
Hasilnya bisa dijual dan mereka bisa make duitnya buat sekolah.
Huah! KAMBING? Iya, Kambing! Bandot! Goat! (bukan KambingJantan.com lho! itu sih si Raditya Dika. Dit, mau lu jd kambing jantannya? :P).
Mau aja nyumbang, tapi duit dari mana ya? terjemahanku blm dibayar :(

Terus masuk Auditorium 2, Gajah duduk paling atas dan seperti biasa nyeleneh dan paling HEBOH, beberapa duduknya pd di tangga (Jeng, kyknya lain kali ga usah takut kehabisan tempat deh! Di tangga jg pada mau tuh!). Begitu duduk, pd buka laptop dan LIVE REPORT, ada beberapa yang pasang webcam jg, Deden (yg duduk di dpnku) pasang webcam buat Didats (HORE!) dan Qta, Gajah2, lgsg berpose buat Didats (Hello Dats....)

Dan Acara dimulai, Pidato dari Menkominfo, Enda, kemudian pengenalan komunitas2 yang ikut (dipanggil MC). Giliran Gajah yang dipanggil, Qta lgsg berdiri dan melambai dengan hebohnya. Btw, Siapa yg mau menjawab tantangan Menkominfo soal Lagu "kebangsaan" Blogger Indonesia?
Talkshow dimulai, dengan Om Wimar Witoelar sebagai Moderator, Enda, Budi Putra, dan... (Doh... Short term memories! pokoknya 4 orang di panggung).
Di tengah2, Om Eko dateng! (Lho? Katanya sakit, kok ikut???) dan duduk di sebelahku yg emang kosong. Hehehehe... Om, lain kali jgn maksain diri dong... *lirik Sinta*

Kemudian antri makan siang, sempet pusing cari tempat duduk, Gajah ngumpulnya deket meja makanan :D
Ngobrol2, bercanda sambil makan seperti biasa... dan setelah makan siang, beberapa ikut workshop, aku pengen jg sih... tapi ah, realitis aja deh! Akhirnya ngobrol2 aja sambil ngemil bareng Sinta, Bundhoot dan beberapa lainnya yang ga ikutan.
Ada 7 workshops :
* Online marketing dan sales: Nukman Luthfie dan Budi Rahardjo
* Women’s issues: Lita Mariana dan Enny (EdRatna)
* Blog Teknologi: Priyadi dan Risman Adnan
* Blog Personal: Anjar Priandoyo dan Nila Tanzil
* Blog Selebriti: Maylaffayza dan Joko Anwar
* Current Issues: Ndoro Kakung Pecas Ndahe dan Sir Mbilung Mac Ndobos
* Bridge Blogging: Ong Hock Chuan dan Fatih Syuhud (tentatif)

Workshop selesai, Qta masuk lagi ke Auditorium dan Awards n Doorprizes time!

Dan...

27 Oktober 2007 dinyatakan sebagai HARI BLOG NASIONAL oleh Menkominfo

Laporan yg lbh lengkap di :

- Om Priyadi
- Om Eko
- Jeng Enda
- Agung Mbot
- Kang Isman
- Adi Kusuma Putra
- Sugoistanley

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Setelah PestaBlogger, Gajah2 ke rumah Heri. Aku? ga ikut! :( Lgsg pulang soalnya ada pesta lain di Darmawangsa : Pesta Ultah Uwakku.
Huah! MC-nya Denny P-Project. Sebelum mulai, aku samperin Kang Denny : "Kang Denny, mungkin udah lupa sama aku. Dulu pernah ketemu di TV7? Indo-harrypotter?"
Kang Denny jawab : "Oh, Yang Jajaran Murid2nya ya?"
Hihihi.. Asyik, kang Denny masih inget aku! Pdhl nyaris setahun yang lalu euh! Sayangnya, sebelum ngobrol lbh jauh, aku dipanggil sama Teh Indri. Ya udah, pamit dan Kang Denny terus masuk ke ruangan untuk memulai acara.

Pulangnya jam 11. Ganti baju, Cuci muka, cuci kaki, cuci gigi, dan bermimpi balik lagi ke pestablogger :D

Thx Jeng Enda, It was a beautiful day!

One Word about me

Aku ngirim sms ini ke orang2 :

"Hanya Satu Kata. Ketika ingin bicara"
Gambarkan aku dgn satu kata.
Hanya Satu Kata!
Kirim jawabannya ke aku lalu kirim pesen ini ke 10 orang.
Lihat jawaban mereka tentangmu.
Bales ya!

dan mereka bales :
- Henny : Seru
- Sinta : Unik
- Duma : Mellon (LHO?)
- Ananda : Saleha (huah? Ahamdulillah!)
- Nie : Perhatian
- Eny : Smart
- Isdah : Harpot (Huee???)
- Lia : Undescribable
- Abi : Wanita (Aih! :"> )
- Ely : Creative

hihihihi.... :"> :"> :"> Thx bgt yaaa....
Ada yg mau nambahin? Be my Guest :D

What a day(s)!

Huah, mau cerita lebaran kok susah bgt...
hmm... lemme see..

Mellon dibawa serta. Di jalan, heboh bgt... jalan2 ke depan ke belakang, nengok2 ke luar, ngeong2 terus sampe akhirnya capek sendiri dan diem di pangkuanku.
Sampe di Bdo, Mellon jalan2 di mess keliling2, ngenalin lingkungan baru.

Aku n Cousins janjian jalan rame2. Kita ke Paris Van Java Mall, Nonton "Get Married".
Duh, kok ya... pas bgt waktunya sama puisiku yg ini ya?
Is it a sign?
Selagi di sana, aku ke petshop-nya, beli makanan&mainan Mellon. Pulang ke mess, Mellon seneng bgt sama mainannya tuh.

Sayangnya, pulang ke jkt, mainannya hilang euy... :(
Plus Mellon stress! :((
Makannya sedikit bgt!
pasti gr2 dibawa ke 3 tempat yg berlainan dalam sehari waktu mau pulang.

Lima hari di Bdo, ga sempet aja ketemu sama Gajah Bandoeng :(
Bundhoot sms "Kita ketemu di pestablogger aja ya"
SIP!!!

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Kemaren hari Sabtu tgl 20, ke Planggi. Halal bi halal IHP, HPI & kopdar Gajah (ga sengaja jg sih yg terakhir ini!).
IHP mulai dari jam 1, HPI mulai jam 5, sama2 di Fudkurt, tapi duduknya jauh2! :(
Lagi ngumpul sama IHP & HPI, tiba2 Jay sms "masih lama di Planggi?"
WAH?? Kok tau??? Jay bls " dari milis, Masset livereport"
WEH?? (oh iya, Sinta jg Gajah ya.. hehehehe... :P) aku ajak aja Jay ke Planggi.
Ga lama, dtg NUGIE! YIPPIE!!!
terus Tony, yg dtg2 lgsg ngejar Lily (HPI).
Pusing mondar mandir IHP <-> HPI, akhirnya aku tinggal aja sama Gajah.
Toh mereka (IHP& HPI) ga kehilangan tuh.
Lagi ngobrol, eh, ternyata ada anak milis lapanpuluhan jg lho! Salam sama Q dan basa basi dikit, mereka terus ke Karaoke
Lanjut ngobrol2 deh sampe jam sembilan, terus Parents jemput.
Pamit, terus pas di pintu, Dad : "Laper nih, ada cemilan ga?"
Qta masuk lagi dan pesen Crepes.
Pas keluar, Gajah2 itu liat kita... dan aku NGAKAK liat tampang "LHO? KOK?" mereka!

Hihihihi...
Duh, di jalan pulang, aku sesak deh... Asma gue kambuh lagi!
Kecapean kali, tapi aku diemin aja. I didnt tell my parents off course!
Hihihihi....
It's a HAPPY DAY!

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Tadi malem, My Nie sms kalo dia ngedadak bengkak, merah, dan gatel.
Aku sms balik nyuruh ke UGD, tapi dasar bandel, malah ngeyel...
"Udah makan Norit dan Incidal, tunggu efeknya aja."
LHO??? Gimana sih??? makan Norit DAN Incidal dalam waktu yg sama????
YANG BENER AJAAAA! Ga akan ada efek apa2 lah saaayyyyy.......
Norit itu nyerap zat2 yang ada di sekitarnya, termasuk obat.
Incidalnya jelas ga akan nyembuhin alerginya dong!
Ah, terserah deh! dikasih tau masih ngeyel jg!

Tadi pagi2 aku sms lagi, nanyain kabarnya.
Dia bales kalo masih gatel, tapi udah lumayan.
Huh! Kl lgsg ke ugd, setengah jam jg lu udah tidur semalam!

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See you there!!!

Taqaballahu minna wa mInkum

Untuk semuanya, mohon dimaafkan bila ada salah..

Aku mudik ke Bandung besok siang, lima hari di bandung.

Pileuleuyan, Pileuleuyan
Sapu Nyere Pegat Simpai
Pileuleuyan, Pileuleuyan
Paturai Patepang Deui

Terjemahan bebas :

Selamat Tinggal,
Sapu Lidi Putus Talinya
Selamat Tinggal
Berpisah untuk bertemu lagi..

Filek!

Puasa tinggal beberapa hari lagi.. Hari ini ditingkahi Flu.
Mellon-ku hari ini juga tidur terus... Kemaren malah bersin-bersin!
Ikut sakit juga, say? Jangan dong... Mending aku aja yg sakit.
Kl mellon sakit, gimana ngasih obatnya? :(

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huaaaa... Dasar Jeng Enda!!!
Itu puisi dikirim ke Gajah tanpa pemberitahuan ya!
Bayar ROYALTI dong!! :P

Hihihihi.... Puisiku ditanggapin serius euy sama kalian.
Sampe Pitoh bela2ian sms aku : "congrats ya.. kpn nih? aku siap2 pake Rok(!) lagi."
Yaolo!
Yang bener, aku nikah masih lama.
Inginnya sesegera mungkin setelah si dia muncul.
itu puisi tiba2 muncul di kepala.

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Td di Metrotv, ada berita mahasiswa astronomi di Dubai menetapkan Lebaran tgl 13.
Di Moon Calculator-ku jg, Bulan baru terlihat di tgl 12 mlm, berarti bener jg tuh, tgl 13 Sabtu kita Lebaran.
Kalo jadi, kita mudiknya hari Kamis ato Jumat.
Ka Bandoeng Euy! Lima Hari ti Bandoeng...
< href="nyanyi-nyanyi"> Hayu batur, urang ka jalma nu rea < /a >

Pertanyaan iseng : Kalo ke bandung naek Bajaj, nyampenya berapa jam ya?

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hmm... apalagi ya?
Halah! Td udah ada di kepalaku segitu banyaknya, begitu buka blog malah hilang...

Ah, sudahlah!
Bobo dulu ah, biar Fileknya sembuh sebelum lebaran nanti :)

*Ya Allah, let this sickness erases my sins*

Dipentung sama Ryza *duh* & some other topics

Undang-undang Tag:

1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger start with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post this rules . at the end of your blog, you need to choose 8 peoples to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to live them a comment telling them they've been tagged to read your blog.

The Assignments:
8 things about me:
1. Hard to be classified
That's me, it's hard to classify me. I can be quiet n talkactive, Strong n weak, clear n confusing, and so on In the SAME TIME! I stand in the middle of everything.

2. Hard to be accompanied
Ask my close friends, they try HARD Enough to keep me accompanied.

3. Nocturnal Being
Yeah... eversince I was little kid.

4. Never been a morning person
Bangun pagi = SENGSARA! Bersin terus tanpa henti sampe kira2 jam 10-an.

5. Cats Lover
I LOVE CATS! Mellon is my Fourth cats after Doki, Stevie n Macan.
Doki n Stevie was gone, n Macan was fighting with another male n lost...
So my Macan left to find another territorial :(

6. A Chatter
Berawal dari thn 96 dulu di Rumpi Room, Jchat di Diffy.com yang berlanjut ke MIRC : irc.diffy.com sampe thn 2000-an. Beberapa dr kami tetep keep in contact sampe sekarang, baik melalui YM atau SMS.
I MISS YOU ALL!

7. Medicine-eater
My daily digest! Dengan segudang penyakit, dari ujung kepala sampe ujung kaki, mau ga mau ya obat2an harus selalu ada (kalo di list panjangggggg!).

8. Books lover.
Meskipun aku suka baca, ga sembarang buku bisa aku baca. Dulu bgt waktu kecil mah bacaanku seri pengetahuan, seperti terbitan balai pustaka, "mengapa begini, mengapa begitu" dsb. Fiksi? ya di majalah Bobo aja :P

hmmm.... sekarang aku tag siapa ya?
KALIAN YG BACA INI ARE TAGGED! >:)

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Rindu...
Rindu pada kehadiranmu
Diriku yang dulu
Yang bisa melakukan sesuatu tanpa ragu
Tanpa takut
Tanpa memikirkan ini itu

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tgl 1 kemaren buka bersama anak2 IHP di The Bangka Burrow (my home).
Huuu.. kalian tuh yaaa... udah dibilangin di rumah aja... keukeuh mau di luar!
Ini Bulan Puasa! Jelas bgt bakal susah cari tempat n bookingnya!
ih mana ngedadak pula!
Ya udah, aku diem aja... Bener kan kt-ku? :P

Tahun ini yg dtg lumayan banyak!
pdhl ngedadak bgt deh! Hihihihi.. SUKSES!!!
Herda, Rina, Leo, Victy dtg duluan. Jam 4 udah dateng
baru deh yg lain nyusul satu2 dtg!

Abis buka, sholat, acara lanjut ke UNO!
Hehehehe.. sampe abis tuh kartu decknya, ga selesai2 jg!

Ely... Foto2nya manaa???

Mellon aku bawa turun ketemu mereka.
Huah, seneng bgt keliatannya... hiperaktif bgt, lari2 ke sana sini..
gigit2 aku terus!
hihihihi... pas aku bawa naik lagi, dia lgsg pulas!
Capek ya say td lari2 terus...
MUACH!

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Kaos Heroes_indonesia-ku akhirnya dtg jg!
Thx ya, Bal.. keren lho!
Ih, pd udah nonton session 2 :(
aku masih nunggu nanti tayang di Starworld. kelihatannya bulan depan baru tayang...

Terus itu DVD Session 1 yg ori mahal juga ya...
tapi liat bonusnya, Worth it deh!
nabung! nabung!

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MAUUUUU BGT IKUT PESTA BLOGGER 2007!!!
Tapi...
dibolehin pergi ga ya sama parents? :(

Jatuh hati!

Iya, jatuh hati!
Sama Fahri, tokoh utama di novel Ayat Ayat Cinta!
dan Aisyah... duh, jd cemburu deh sama Aisyah... begitu beruntung memiliki Fahri yang .... *duh, Speechless ah!*

Banyak sekali quote yang mau aku tulis di sini, tapi bukunya ga tau dibawa Daddy ke bdo atau disimpen di suatu tempat, jd ga bisa nulisnya.. :(
Ini ada satu puisinya yg aku nemu di resensi2 blog :

Bidadariku...
namamu tak tertulis dalam catatan harianku
asal-usulmu tak terdetik dalam diskusi kehidupanku
merdu suaramu tak terekam dalam pita batinku
namun kau selalu hadir dalam setiap relung jiwaku
memberikan motivasi yang sangat berarti didiriku
jika nanti kita akan bertemu
aku akan menjagamu dengan seluruh jiwa dan ragaku
karena ku yakin kau adalah anugrah teragung dari allah kepadaku

Baca aja sendiri deh!
VERY-VERY RECOMMENDED!

Ya Allah, Ketemukan aku dengan Fahri-ku...
yang mencintai-MU lebih dari segalanya,
yang menempatkan-MU di atas segalanya,
yang bisa membawaku dan dibawa olehku ke pintu surga-MU
yang bisa menuntunku dan dituntun olehku ke jalan yang ENGKAU ridhoi
yang bisa menentramkan hati dan jiwaku dan ditentramkan olehku
yang bisa menjadi Imam-ku
yang bisa kuharapkan dan mengharapkanku
Dan aku bisa menjadi seorang Aisyah bagi Fahri-ku...

Ya Allah,
Tak ada lagi yang bisa kupinta selain kepada-MU
Maka ridhoi lah diriku,
Ridhoilah orang-orang tersayangku,
Jauhkanlah mereka dari murka-MU

Ya Allah,
masukkan aku ke dalam kelompok orang yang sabar, tabah dan ikhlas dalam menghadapi semua cobaan-MU...

IKHLAS
IKHLAS
IKHLAS

the voices say....

you are useless
you are nothing
you are hated
you are damned
you are unwanted
you are not worth it
you are unloved
they dont love you
they dont want you
they just be polite on you
die!
drink those (drugs) more!
doomed!
cut the vein!
and so on...

schyzophrenic? possible...
this is just one of deepest secrets of mine that I didnt tell anybody yet (except Santi of IHP, as she is a psikolog) not even my parents.
If "kambuh", I could fall into a depression.

Only when online, I can ignore them...
Only when Kopdar or meet a friend, I can "forget" it.
Only when I'm with you, I can turn it down.
Now... As I have no attention diversion anymore that my parents have cut out the i-net, they grow louder and louder...
I dont know... now they asked me to cut out my relationships by sms.
Now... Pls dont stop sms me.
Just dont stop! So I can turn my attention away from those devilish voices..

Mellon helps a bit but not when I have a quarrelling with parents or anybody.
Ah... Why did YOU give me what I wished in front of YOUR Holy House of Kabah when my parents disapproved anything YOU gave to me?

Yesterday...
I had a dream.
I saw somebody died
I called-out this person's name tried to wake her up.
the soul was standing behind me, looking sadly at us.
and I woke up.

This Ramadhan...
I cant feel it..
I do fast everyday
But I dont even feel hungry at all.
ah... See yaa when I can online again.
But I dont know when...

Mellon sayang...(2)

Hehehehe...
Ada2 aja tingkah Mellon...

Kemaren dia bangunin aku : jalan-jalan di dada, leher, dan jilat2 kupingku.
Td pagi, beda lagi caranya : jalan-jalannya di mukaku!
Bolak-balik di mukaku, rambutku, jilat2 leher...
Dan tiap kali aku duduk di depan kompie, dia naik ke pangkuanku terus main2 dan... TIDUR!
GEMESIN AJA DIKAU INI!!!
Dasar!

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Hmm...
Refrain lagu ini lagi berputar terus di kepalaku :

I WANNA DANCE WITH SOMEBODY(WHO LOVES ME)
06/06/1987 - 2 weeks at #1 - 16 weeks on chart

Clock strikes upon the hour
And the sun begins to fade
Still enough time to figure out
How to chase my blues away
I've done alright up 'til now
It's the light of day that shows me how
And when the night falls, loneliness calls

Oh! I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

I've been in love and lost my senses
Spinning through the town
Soon or later the fever ends
And I wind up feeling down
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart falls

Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
(Somebody who)
(Somebody who)
Somebody who loves me
(Somebody who)
(Somebody who)
To hold me in his arms
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart falls

Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

Don'tcha wanna dance, with me baby
Don'tcha wanna dance, with me boy
Don'tcha wanna dance, with me baby
With somebody who loves me
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Aha
With somebody who loves me

Aih... *BLUSHING*

Dan abis cari lirik lagunya, dpt jg lirik lagu One Moment In Time.
duh, lagunya lupa-lupa inget gitu...

ONE MOMENT IN TIME - 15/10/1988
2 weeks at #1 - 12 weeks on chart

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I face the pain
I rise and fall yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be
I will be free, oh
I will be, I will be free

Yeah... I will be free!
Free from all those broken hearts!
But not running from them, I WONT running!
I turn them back to THEE!

O Destiny...
Give me Strength to face those pains!
Give me Sincerity to face those trials!
Give me Patience to face my destiny!

Sweethearts of mine, I LOVE YOU!
Thanks for being my friends,
I'm NOTHING Without You!
GBU Always...

Mellon sayang...

Lucky me to have my Mellon to let free this hyperactive energy of mine.
Mellon sekarang udah aktif euy.
Lari2 ke sana ke mari, cakar sana gigit sini.
Tanganku habis dah digigitin Mellon.
Lucunya, kalo aku udah sibuk sama hp, Mellon lgsg gangguin : tarik2 tanganku, hpku, terus main2 di pangkuanku. Gitu jg kalo aku udah duduk di depan kompie. Sering kali, malah tidur di pangkuanku. Kucing bisa cemburu juga yaaa?
Ah, Mellon... You have my full attention...

Tapi ya ada akibatnya juga sih...
Cepet Drained!
Tidurnya lbh cepet plus siang jg tidur!
Lucunya lagi, aku tidur siang, Mellon JUGA ikut tidur di kursi kompie!
Aku bangun, dia jg bangun!
Ah, biar aja deh.. drpd dia tidurnya di kolong ranjangku.

Hmm... Mommy beli rujak yg ada ebinya, terus Mellon nyamperin melulu, kyk penasaran.

hehehehe.. Bau ebi ya? Entar aku beliin Friskies yg Seafood ya say....

Btw, nih Mellon naik lg ke pangkuanku, dan Diem!
Lho? ngantuk lg? baru aja td tidur dan main bentar sama my sis.

ah, tidur juga ah....
Nighty night, everybody...

Angst

Beginikah gambaran Ravenclaw?
Dengan karma negatif yang segitu banyak? yang melebihi karma positifnya?
Saling membalas dengan panas hati?
Ah... Ravenclaw yang malang...

Ravenclaw yang mestinya menjadi embun penyejuk di Hogwarts kini malah saling membakar?

Ke mana Ravenclaw-ku yang :
1. Bila benar, katakan benar.
2. Bila salah, katakan salah.
3. Bila ditegur, introspeksi diri.
4. Bila berbicara, berpikir dua kali sebelum mengutarakan.
5. Bila dipancing, pancingan itu tidak disambar begitu saja.
6. Bila terpancing, logikalah yang akan berjalan daripada emosi.
7. Tidak pernah merasa paling benar.
8. Tidak pula pernah mengatakan kebalikan dari fakta yang ada.
9. Mendapatkan SP1 saja udah tersiksa habis dan mencoba untuk menghindari SP SP berikutnya.

Ke mana???
Ah, Ke mana aku harus mencari Ravenclaw-ku?

Ravenclaw sejati akan berlaku seperti Padi di sawah : semakin berisi semakin merunduk.
Ravenclaw sejati tak akan berlaku gegabah melanggar peraturan yang ada.
Ravenclaw sejati lebih memilih untuk diam dan mendengarkan.

ah... Di mana harus mencari Ravenclaw-ku yang dulu pernah kubanggakan?

*was once a proud member of Ravenclaw*

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Aku namain kucingku : Mellon (baca: Melong)
Mellon udah mulai berani keliling-keliling dan mulai main-main denganku.
Aku pangku, si Mellon malah tidur!
Seneng deh... walaupun masih suka ngumpet2 di kolong lemari.

Huwahh, Nie n Kadir say... cepet sembuh yaaa...
Barengan demam begitu :(

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My Heart... my bleeding heart... stop bleeding, dear...
Too much things that remind me of him.
Strong! Just be Strong! Stronger than usual!

My Mind... my logic mind... wants to stop this heart's bleeds.
It wants to leave the place of darkness.
Strong! Just be Strong! Stronger than the Heart!

Mind n Heart...
must work in unison to getout of darkness.
Ah... wish I've never met him.

Maybe I'll go away from all these..
Going to my second homeland to get cured.
But it would have seen as runaway.
No! ENOUGH RUNNING!
FACE IT! JUST FACE IT!
DONT LET HIM WIN!

YOU!
What did YOU DO to ME???
Life has been hard before you came!
And YOU MADE IT HARDER!!!
Hard to stay, Hard to leave.
Especially when I was able to stop thinking about you, YOU CAME AGAIN INTO MY DREAM!

I WANT TO BE THAT "ME" ON THE LAST DREAM!
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY THOSE WORDS IN REALITY!

Yes, Mprass... I must admit that I'm still angry.
You are right, I am still mad.
Angry to myself!
for not able to stop me care for him!

God, Please erase his name from the wall of my heart!
I'd love to be like him : Not caring about him anymore.

Let this heart heals...
Let this heart buries the memories of him to the darkness.
Let this heart find another heart that is worth to be loved.

Surprised!

Pagi ikut Mom pergi.
Di jln, Ada sms, "Nih no gue! Jgn kasih tau yg lain ya no-nya!"
WAH???? HORE!!!
Surprised yg pertama!

Ah, aku pikir drpd ikut Mom ke dokter kulit dan nunggu sejam bengong di sana, mending diturunin di salon potong rambut. aku bil sama Mom begitu.
dan Mom setuju... Surprised yg kedua!
Abis cuci, begitu duduk, Didi (hairstylish langgananku) lgsg nyerocos : "ihhh.. ke mana aja? udah lama ga ke sini...."
"Iya nih... aku lg pengen panjang. bagus ga?"
Didi : "Ah bagusnya segini nih!" (dia nunjuk seleher) Surprise ketiga!!!
:( Ya udah... ikut aja.

Selesai potong, bayar, ngeliat ke luar... Duh si emak blm dateng! Ya udah nunggu deh...
Mom akhirnya dateng, aku nanya "Katanya sejam?"
Mom mllh ketawa... "nyasar! salah belok!"
Suprise yg keempat. (tumben si Emak nyasar!)
Qta ke Citoz!! Ketemu Nini, Ibu, Ua, dan Teh Indri!! Pangpang kok ga dibawa, Teh? :(
Belanja di supermarket. terus pulang.

di rumah, aku main Solitaire di kompie :D
terus Mom bil kl My Sis lg di jln pulang n bawa kejutan buat aku. "tunggu aja di bawah!"
My Sis dtg bawa kardus. "Wah??"
ternyata Anak Kucing!!! keturunan Persia! 3 bln umurnya!
Surprise yg kelima!

Cuma... kok diem bgt sih????
Ditaro di lt, malah ngumpet di bawa meja!!
Ditaro di kursi, meringkuk di sudutnya!
"Kamu knp milih yg ini?" tanya ke Sis.
Sis jawab : "Abis diem!"
Aku ngakak bgt!
Sis : "Iya, beda deh dgn yg lainnya, yg ini dipanggilin ga nyamperin, main jg ga! Pokoknya diem aja!"
Dasar!!!
Suprise yg keenam!

Pas ditaro di kandang, ribut bgt deh! ngeong2 kyk manggilin gitu!
Sama Sis dikeluarin terus dibawa ke kamarnya.
Aku masuk kamarku, main lagi. terus....
"Teh, tolong dong!"
"Apa?"
"kucingnya masuk ke kolong meja, ga mau keluar lagi!"
Ha???
Yaolo! tu ucing bener2 penakut bgt ya???
Aku ambil deh, terus...
Di gendonganku, kerasa bgt kalo dia gemeteran!!! (Surprise yang ketujuh)
pokoknya kasiaaaaaaaannnnnnnn bgt deh!
Aku sodorin susu di mangkok, ga mau. sodorin daging, ga mau!
PUSINK!
Iseng2, aku cocolin tuh susu, terus jariku yg basah krn susu aku sodorin ke moncongnya.
eh??? Dijilatin! (Surprise yg kedelapan)
Ya udah, sambil browsing, sambil nyusuin kucing! XP
Ini sekarang ni ucing tidur di perutku.
Lumayan udah gemetaran lagi kyk td.

Duh, seneng deh... dia tidurnya enak bgt!
Sekarang aku bingung... Surprise yang terakhir : Gimana Gue tidurnya?????
*garuk-garuk*

Jakarta DINGIN!

Setelah 3 hari superpanas (sampe AC-pun ga mempan!), hari ini Jakarta DINGIN!
Tanpa ac pun udah dingin! hihihihi.. jarang2 nih Jakarta dingin kyk di Puncak begini.
Tanpa matahari pula alias mendung dan sesekali hujan.

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hihihi..
Kemaren malem lagi ngobrol sama Mas C (dan Kobo), ada bayangan buku dan warna biru.
ya aku tanya ke Mas, "Mas, ada buku biru di situ?"
Mas jawab "ga tuh".
wah??? kecele lagi! Mas C pamit deh, "pulang dulu ya". OK deh...
Trus lagi ngobrol2 dengan Kobo, eh, Si Kobo ngomong : "Trin, liat deh blog buku-ku, warnanya biru lho sekarang!"
HA???
Spontan aku ngakak sendiri!
Duh! Finally it's back! After 7 months!
Walaupun blm jelas arahnya dari mana.
Mudah2an kedepannya nanti bisa lebih terkontrol, ga semaunya dia dtg dan pergi di saat yg salah.

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Sebel sm Edwin!
Salah nulis namaku meulu!
Akhirnya aku diemin tu sms.
Curhat ke Aufi, hasilnya Edwin malah ngeledek!
Huh! AWAS LO YAAAA....
Entar aku HEX lo!

mimpi itu...

Yah... Daddy... Wifonenya ga jalan tuhhh...

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Hmm...
td mlm mimpi :
Lo dtg ke rmhku, dan ngomong "You are My True Love" ke gue di depan Hubby(!)
dan Gue bilang ke Lo "Thank You, But I'm Sorry. As You know, I'm married, and We are not made for each other".

Lo masih ngeyel ngomongin bagaimana kita berhubungan emosional dengan erat di masa lalu.

dan aku jawab : "Bil, look at my eyes... You once had a special place in my heart, but you have wasted your chances and you made me say "Goodbye" to you; A prohibited word for me. It broke my heart, because I promised to myself : "Never say Goodbye, But Say See you later." Bil, I once wished to give you another chance, but your answer showed that you havent and wont change.

So I go on with my life n I've found someone who loves me as I love him here (holding on my hubby's hand, he was quiet, and let me speak for myself). Even you was invited to the reception. AND NOW you came to me, saying that I'm your true love and expected me to go with you??? Gees! What an EGO!
So, Bil, Thank you for your honesty, but It's too late... I'm sorry."

Lo terdiam lama. (Ngahuleung, urang sunda bilang mah!)

"Sekarang permisi dulu, my baby needs me."

Dan aku bangun n think about the dream.
Another real dream...
hihihihihi.. My hubby di mimpi itu ga ngomong apa2, cuma diem nungguin. Tdnya dia mau masuk ke ruang keluarga to give a private session, tapi aku minta dia tinggal, dan baru bergerak masuk karena our baby nangis.
*Blushing*
Hihihihi... ah, it was a dream.. but I hope that part of "Hubby and Baby" come true. Amien!
*BLUSHING*

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Winda said it means I've just started to get over him by saying "Tq but I'm Sorry"
Well then.. Good news..

And for You, Dir... I hope you can sort it out with your ex.
And Aufi say... #-o 3 HILANG LAGI??? OMIGOD!!! Ah Opih...
And Nie say... I wish you make it, honey! You must go as high as possible for yourself and me!
And Edwin say... pls take a good nap, will ya?

AND LAST BUT LEAST! FOR ALL OF YOU, CHEERS UP!

GEMPAAAA!!!

Hiihihi....
Gempa! jam 12.04 malem!
Lagi duduk abis nonton Lintas Malam TPI (ada gue lagi lho! :D bareng IHP di Talkshow Aksara kemaren) di sofa with my sis, kita sama2 sibuk sendiri-sendiri; dia lagi sms-an, aku lagi baca..
Terus sofa goyang2. tadinya aku mau ngomong : "Jangan goyang2 dong..."
tapi kita liat2an gitu! kata2 yg udah di lidah, ga jadi aku omongin.
Hihihi.. keliatan bgt kalo dia jg mau ngomong yg sama!
"Gempa???" kataku akhirnya. Gila, lama juga itu sofa goyang2.
Akhirnya qta berdua nyadar terus ke kamar Mom.
Di kamar, Dad (yang tdnya udah tidur) duduk tegak di kasurnya, sementara Mom lagi sholat.
Tampang Dad lucu bgt deh!
Aku sms ke Gajah, Sobat2ku dan Edwin : "GEMPA!!!!"
Edwin bales : "Iya, di 4ls pd 7bt. lagi record data." Terus sms berikutnya dari Edwin lagi "6,17 SR, Pusat Gempa Indramayu"
WEH????
Win, masih belum bobo? Hati2 ah! badan hancur entar, say!

Eh, ada sms dari Isdah," =)) abis lupin keluar, di Malang gempa." Bundhoot jg.. "Bdg Gempa!"
Aftereffect on me : the air felt different and my ear kept "listen" to sounds like drum being beaten.
(Papandayan jg ikut bangun ya..)

Metrotv DODOL! Marqueenya ngaco! "... tidak mempengaruhi aktifitas Gn berapi di Sumbar, yakni Gn Talang, Tandikat dan MERAPI"
Sejak kapan Merapi pindah ke Sumatra???
Merapi itu kan di YGY! Yg di Sumbar bukannya MARAPI?
Hati2 ah! Remember, WRONG SPELLING CAN CREATE CHAOS!

JENG ENDA!!!
Ih, Jorok deh! GA PERNAH NGEFLUSH! =))
Kasian Mbak Nita, tiap kali mau pake.. "ENDAAAAAAA!!!" =)) =))
Mudah2an Gaga ga kyk gitu yeee... Mbak Nita bakal tambah pusyink deeehhhh.. :P
*Gubrak* Tu Foto yang itu lagi yaaa... Ga ada foto lain??? :P :P :P

Dirsay, I hope I can help you on your problem.
As to that, first, you should change your number, d'you know?
Dont forget to send me your other number, will you?

Opih sayy... No news at all euy! Yesterday n Today! :(
I hope my advice works for you!
Tell me if you did it!

Oh iya... kemaren ada sms dari Diffyers lho, Dir!
"Geblek, bs2-nya mraduk nongol di kompas!"
"Wah, lbh ganteng drpd aslinya! kok bs sih?"
"Ada Hantu nongol di situ!"
"Wah.. Ada Cho dan Marduk di Kompas!"
"Baru tau kalo Kadir suka Harry Potter juga, jadi Hagrid kah?"
hihihihihi...

And then...
Go to Bdg tomorrow @ 8am.
We'll be goin home on Sunday morning.
I hope I can ol at Mess using MGI's connection :D

I'm expecting you to come to my home, Dir.
Sms me ok? ASAP.

A song that played in my head over and over again...

I give her all my love
That's all I do
And if you saw my love
You'd love her too
I love her

She gives me everything
And tenderly
The kiss my lover brings
She brings to me
And I love her

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

This song...
is played in my head these days...

I've been hoping there'll be someone who'll sing this song for me one day.
*blushed*
ah, never mind it..
just a girl's dream :">

*to ally, so sorry I cant upload the song for you, now.
one day, maybe..
I promise you.
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Hihihihi...
Hari Senin ke Planggi bareng Nie.
Huah! I MISS YOU SO MUCH DARLING!
keliling2 sama Nie, aku cari keypad dan batere hp.
Nie beli baju buat Faza.
*Dearest Nie, why I never can write the details about what happened on the day we are together?*

At home, sms-an dgn kadir, terus....
Aku matiin hp, mau ganti batt yang baru terus dicharge pertama kali 8 jam.
Begitu besok pagi dinyalain, yang pertama masuk : "JANGAAANNNN!! jahat amat sih balesnya! Pake matiin hp segala!"
*hihihihihi* sumpah ngikik abis, say... Sorry bgt...

Hari Selasa, pagi2 ada sms dari Anne dan Ely soal Offline kecil2an.
*Protes* kadonya susah amat sih 10rb??? MAU BELI APAAN???
Ya udah, berangkat abis makan siang ke Planggi, and sms Kadir n Nie aku otw to planggi
*Nie bales : "Kenapa ga bilang??? aku udah di rumah!" Aku jg baru tau, sayyyy....*

muter2 cari keypad buat hp *GILA SYUSYAAAAAAAHHHHH!!* ga nemu.
muter2 cari barang buat tukeran kado, Ga nemu!
Untung udah siapin dr rumah, jaga2 kalo ga dpt.
Jam 5, nunggu di Dunkin, beli donut satu dan thai ice tea.
Heran ga dtg2 tu anak2 mpe sekitar jam 6...
EH GA TAUNYA!!!! Mereka ngumpul di luar!
*DASAR DUDUTS*

Pindah ke atas, cari makan.
Aku pesen Salad yang GILE BGT GEDENYAAA!!!
kalo aku yg dulu sih segitu mah HABIS!
Sekarang????? nyisa setengahnya! :((
Padahal prinsipku : jangan pernah sisakan makananmu!
Untuk sekarang ini, mesti melupakan hal itu dulu nih!

Pulangnya, I CANT SLEEP AT ALL!!
Bolak-balik di ranjang, akhirnya pindah ke kamar Ma.
dan .. SAMA JUGA GA BISA TIDUR!!!
OMIGOD!
total tidur hari ini mungkin cuma 3 jam kali.

Dirsay, Thx bgt kemaren ngobrol2 lagi kyk dulu.
Thx jg traktirannya.
Sayang Nde ga jadi dtg.
Tapi jujur aja, kalo Nde jd dtg, mungkin dia cuma jd raket nyamuk kali...
*lari dr tendangan Nde*
I miss you and the Slipi-ers SO MUCH!
One day I will go visit TSP.

Dirsay, Did I do or say anything wrong that night?
Because it seems to me that you are a bit avoiding me this day.
Tell me what's wrong, pls?

I LOVE YOU, MY NIE, DIRSAY, AUFI, EDWIN AND ALL DIFFYERS!
*MUACH!*

And Especially for Aufi, MUACH MUACH mpe basah!
You made me realized that I'm A fighter eversince I was baby.
That's WHY I always fight with everybody, everything, especially myself.

Therefore, to all of my friends, I apologize for everything, especially to those who are close enough to me.
I know You've been trying HARD to stay by my side.
I'm Grateful of it! I Know I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PAY IT BACK.
I'm trying to do my best for you!

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Hari ini ke Cipete, arisan keluarga.
SEPI BGT deh! Pada kemana yang lain?
Ponakan2ku jg ga ada euy.. :(

Pulangnya terusin terjemahan yang kemaren2 terlantar gr2 terus2an sakit.
*HUAH!* I'm going through Chapter Eleven now, say.. dikit lagi Chapter 12 deh...

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Must sleep, it's 12 am now.
Dont know when I'll be ol again.

Nighty night...

Ah....

Ternyata... masih begini saja.
Belum sepenuhnya lepas dari hiperbilirubin, Ga akan kembali seperti dulu lagi.
Ga akan 100% lagi.

Well, whatever...

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I'M GLAD TO FIND MY DIFFYERS BACK!!!
AUFI! EDWIN! KADIR!
*MUACH MUACH MUACH!!!*
I'd love to see you all again, my dear!!!!
Forgive me to bring you some shock, Win... ;))
I'm expecting your coming to my home next August, ok Win?
Dont forget to take Aufi and one of your snake for me, Sweetums.

Say, pls send me XP Setup CD, would you?

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And I've finished reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.
Really, You'd think it happened only in one night, the Camp Scenes..
And DOBBY!

It was fun @ QB and Aksara.
(Ah, Why Cant I write about Funtimes in blog?)

And The Dream!
You hugged me from behind my back..
the way you hugged me like you wont release me again..
When I turned around to see you...
I saw you, wearing huge smile, and your face shone brightly.
It seems to me that you were a happiest man in the world.

I wish it happen to you soon or later.
I really hope that happen to you.

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Ah, Mommy start to preach again...
I'll continue writing next time.

Huee????

Lepas dari hiperbilirubin, dateng penyakit lain..
halah! hihihihihi...
jadi gampang pusing, mual dsb.
Dan diomel Emak gr2 sms-an waktu sakit kemaren bikin tagihan yg .... *BUSYET BGT GEDENYA!*

Td siang pergi ikut Mom ke Poinsquare setelah ngelayat temen haji Mom.
cuma ke supermarketnya doang sih.. tapi lumayan bikin pusingku kambuh lagi.
But I didnt tell Mom. No! She doesnt need to know this.

Akhirnya UPS Baru dtg...
merknya LAPLACE PHASOR 1200.
tapi ada yg bikin pusing : colokan monitornya bagaimana????
monitorku ga ngambil listrik dr PC, lgsg ke colokan listrik.
nah masalahnya UPS ini cuma ada colokan2 .... (duh istilahnya apa sih??)
Kompie colok ke ups, monitor dan Kabel telp (buat internet) jg ke ups.
Sementara monitorku tipe colokannya bukan dr PC!
jd kalo mati listrik... kompie tetep nyala tapi monitor mati!
PERCUMA kan???
Ada kabel adaptornya ga ya? namanya apaan sih?
nanti mau beli!

WIMODE GILA!
apanya yg 245,5 KBPS??? Nyatanya cuma 0,6 KBPS!!!
aku mau dl software buat ups-nya ajaaaa.. dari td sore jam 3 mpe sekarang jam 11 mlm masih DELAPAN PERSEN DOANG!!!
udah pake GETRIGHT pdhl!!
:((

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Oh iya, kemaren ikut talkshow Harry Potter di QB Kemang
Tamunya : Rama dan Utri
Rama dkk-nya cukup bergairah ikut acara talkshow-nya.
tapi Utri? Manyun dan diem terus deh.. gerakan tubuhnya seperti males atau ga pede ikutan talkshow-nya.
Sayang bgt deh..

I told you, Anne, about the Audiobook dan the Braille Books :)
It was your first time to see the audiobook looks like, wasnt it?
hihihihi... I heard the sound but as usual it was just mumbling sounds to me.

And .. :"> :"> :"> "NE!" hihihi... JADI MALU!!!
Suaraku pasti kenceng bgt deh mpe Bunda Yessi kaget gitu!
maksudku ngasih tau Anne spy ngambil mic dr Rama (yg udah nyodorin micnya buat diambil Anne). Tapi..
hihiihihi....

Ketemu lagi sama Hadi, Anne, Wahyu, dan Mita...!!!
I miss you all!!

See you again tomorrow At kuali bocor!

2 Minggu jadi 4 Minggu!

Dari yang 2 mgg trus ditambah lagi 2 mgg...
Jadi total 4 mgg Bedrest.
Huah, jadi bener2 terisolir, bosen... SUPERBOSAN!
Hihihihi... Gara2 Superbosen, aku ngomel2, marah2, down, mpe ada beberapa orang yg jd korban kebosenanku. *Lirik Abi, Lia, Nie, Edo, dll.
Sorry ya sayyyy... bener2 SORRYYYYY BGT!

Dan sepertinya aku ga akan pernah sembuh bgt deh.
Ga boleh capek atau kambuh lagi!

Kemudian selama sakit dan superbosen itu, acara IHP di Aksara Kemang, yg tempatnya sebenernya deket bgt dr rumah (bisa jalan kaki), jadi kelewat. AIH BETEEEEEEE!!!!
Dan acara Kopdaran Gajah yang biasanya aku bela2in ikutan juga ga bisa ikutan!
Tambah BT lagi!

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Kemaren arisan keluarga di Puncak, GILA SUPER MACET!!! Yang mestinya cuma 1-2 jam ini jadi 7 jam!!! Dr rmh jam 9 sampe di Vila Keluarga di Cipanas JAM EMPAT SORE! LAPERRRRRR ga makan siang!
Aku sms sm Yaya, Yaya bilang ada bis masuk jurang di Ciloto.
Ha? Ya pantes aja atuh!

Seperti biasa, jail-jail semua dan pasti ada yang nangis.
Sayang ga lengkap! Kurang 2 keluarga :Kakang dan keluarga tebet.

Aku masih pengen nulis, tapi udah disuruh off. :(

Hmm.. kapan ol lagi yaaa??? :(

Hiperbilirubin lagi

Well...
What Can I Say?

Senin Pagi, bangun2 lgsg muntah cairan kuning pahit. Dan aku udah curiga kalo itu cairan empedu.
Malem ke dokter, terus Selasa Pagi cek darah.
Hasilnya : Bilirubin totalku ada 4 mg/dl. Sedangkan normalnya : di bawah 1 mg/dl
Seperti dugaanku, Dokter bilang : Hiperbilirubin.
Dokter cuma bilang : Istirahat di tempat tidur selama 2 mgg.

Ini yg ketigakalinya aku hiperbilirubin gini.
Pengalaman terakhir waktu kul dulu, disuruh makan yg manis2 (permen, ah pokoknya Gula), Kerang, udang (Zat besi deh).

Jadi terpaksa off dulu selama 2 mgg yaaaa.. kecuali kalo Parents ngasih ijin ol sebentar, sekedar pengusir bosan.

See yaa... :)

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*Copy-paste dari Blog Om Pri

Jawaban untuk "Notyrfriend"

Hihihi...
I clapped at your effort on memorizing my blog's address, opened your internet explorer, typed this blog's address (http://loopeen.blogspot.com/), pressed enter or clicked "Go!". And then patiently waited for my blog to appear on your internet explorer (by telkomnyet, it took a long time to be fully loaded, I know, a very looonnngggg time, really...), and scrolled down to find my shoutbox, thought of a nickname and a fake web to make sure that I will not know your true id. Then ah... you've found one good name : "Ntyrfriend". based on "Not Your Friend" means "Not my friend". I got the point...
Then you wrote those "hatemails", Carefully thinking and writing not to show your true id and hoping that I will be intimidated by your writings.

I'm touched, really... I admire it.
BUT You've forgot TWO simple things : I am a freak and I am far more used to it.
For I was treatened by most of my school fellows the way you do now. Even worse than that, in fact.
And, as a freak, the more you threatened me like that, the happier I become. Because you have made my day colourful.
As to that, I'm thankful. Bless You!

One Question for you, Is that all you got for me? If it is, I feel terrible sorry for you. Like I said above : My school fellows treatened me far worse than that.

Tapi... Sudahlah... Gue ga mau memperpanjang masalah yang gue sendiri ga tau ujung pangkalnya. Sedih gue liat lo mempermalukan diri sendiri kyk gini, say...
Dont go biting your nails too much, because it'll bleed.
Untuk "teriakan"mu selanjutnya, gue hapus biar lo ga malu2in diri sendiri.

This would be my last word for you. If you still want to continue the quarrelling, It's all up to you. I'm not going to play your game, dear :)

GBU Always

Susahnya jadi Nocturnal

As a nocturnal, otakku bisa berpikir dengan jelas pada saat orang2 sudah tidur dengan pulasnya. Aku udah nyadarin itu sejak mulai kuliah dulu, saat sedang ber"nostalgia" dan mengingat bagaimana aku begitu susah dibangunkan pagi2 sehingga selalu telat setengah jam atau lebih ke sekolah padahal jarak antara sekolah dan rumahku cuma 5 menit pake mobil kalo lagi ga macet. Sampe2 Mom bawa aku ke Sanatorium Darmawangsa untuk berkonsultasi dengan psikolog yg bernama Bu Tita selama bertahun-tahun. Ga berhasil dengan Bu Tita, Mom bawa aku ke MMC ke Psikolog Prof Titi. tapi di sini cuma sebentar.

Aku menyadari aku baru bisa mengerjakan tugas2 kuliah (dan pekerjaanku saat ini) pada waktu yg ganjil bagi orang2, yaitu setelah jam 10 malam. Aku bisa saja mengerjakannya sebelum jam 10, tapi ga bisa maksimal karena ga bisa konsentrasi, jadinya cuma satu paragraf atau kurang. Sementara sesudah jam 10 (lebih baik lagi sesudah jam 12-1 malam sampai subuh menjelang) bisa berlembar2 yang selesai diterjemahin.

Namun Mom ga mau dan ga bisa terima kalo mengerjakannya pada saat2 "cemerlang" itu. Padahal siang-siang tuh bawaan ngantuk melulu. dipaksa ngerjain juga cuma dapet maksimal 1 halaman! Kalo pergi dengan Mom siang2, pasti ada omelan mengenai nguap2 yang cukup sering dan tidur selama di jalan. "Siang nguap melulu! Ga bagus!"
Mau ngerjain terjemahan juga... EEUUHHH! BUNTU ABIS! Sementara jam malemku (harus udah tidur) jam 1!
Sampai terpikirkan mengembalikan saja buku itu ke GPU. Malu ga selesai2!

Bagaimana bisa mengerjakannya kalo gitu????

Tak tahu mengapa....

Sebelum aku tahu akan artinya cinta
Kutelah dibawanya ke sana
Setelah dia pergi, baru aku mengerti
Kutelah jatuh cinta kepadanya...

#Oh... Aku rindu
Katakan padanya aku rindu
Oh Burung... Nyanyikanlah
katakan padanya aku rindu

Lagu "ini rindu"-nya Alm. Farid Hardja berputar2 terus di kepalaku.
Lupa lanjutannya,
Ada sih satu lagi lagu yg sedang "mengganggu"ku, cuma lupa judul lagunya.


Hmm... Sial abis...
Baru nyadarin ini : Tiap kali aku mulai melupakannya, mulai ga mikirin lagi, dia nongol gitu aja di mimpi!
Yang lebih nyebelin lagi : nongolnya diem aja, cuma ngeliatin muka cemberut seperti ga rela aku lupain dia!
Yaolo! Beraninya ngasih tanda cuma di mimpi! Without word at all!
Sumpah, Chicken Abis!
Huh! Sini deh LO! Jgn cuma berani nongol di mimpi! BE A MAN! JANTANLAH KAU!

Halah! ngomel2 gini di blog jg percuma deh! ga akan dibaca sama dia!
Andaikan beneran dia baca jg, tampaknya ga akan ngaruh sama sekali.
egonya yang segede alam semesta pasti ngehalangin perasaan yang sesungguhnya.

DASAR CHICKEN!! Petok-petokkkk!!!
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Mudah2an hari sabtu flu sembuh, terus ke Planggi
- Beli PCMCIA buat Telkomsel Flash.
- Ikut rapat
- SELESAIIN TERJEMAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Deadlocked

Walaupun aku udah dikasih tahu dr bulan lalu spy siap2 koneksi diputus, ga nyangka cepet aja, jadi jg kemaren diblok dan Mom berencana ga akan bayar lagi.

Mom sih keliatannya seneng aja koneksi diputus, ktnya : "Kamu ga akan tidur malem lagi"
Duh, Mom... Kalo koneksi diputus, mau ga mau, terpaksa pake dialup. Sedangkan di mana2 yg namanya Dialup tuh yaa... murahnya jam 1-5 pagi toh???
Well... You have been very wrong, Mom, in thinking I wouldnt be sleeping At One!

Sempet ngamuk jg td gr2 Dnet jg diputus! :(
And Mom didnt tell me about that.

Dan hari ini aku pake telkomnyet, sebelumnya aku bilang sama Mom biar siap2 bayar telp+telkomnyet 1 jt-an.
Jadi, Mom sayang... kalo tagihan lbh dr itu, pls PLS DONT BLAME ME, ok?

U've closed my window to the world.

Yang aku pikirin cuma "Gimana caranya nge-mods milis dan jagain forum tanpa kabelnet?"
On that case, must ask Teh Ninit to give Rara another permission to aprrove messages of new members.
Apalagi mods ihp yg lain ga pernah ngecek Folder Spam!

Sms Bunda, aku ansab lagi dr gajah sementara, mpe ga-tau-kapan.
Sms Henny, Edo, Winda, dll, ngasih tau kl i-net diputus.
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Bakal Flu lagi nih... tenggorokan udah gatel bgt, udah mulai mampet2...

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L'il Faza is beautifull!
I'm glad to see her and her mother again.
despite the fact that I was "GA PUAS" karena ada orang lain di situ (her Hubby).

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Gusi berdarah terus, sariawan, mimisan, plus gejala flu.
pusing mau sikat giginya! pdhl tu sikat udah yg soft.
Kemaren ketauan jg sama Mom, beratku sekarang 43,5 kg.
Alhasil kena omel abis2an!

Dah ah! Bobo dulu.
Selasa, Insyaallah, ol lg di Cibitung (tawaran dari Pa, "ga ada yg make")
Mesti milih2 lagi milis2 yg mau diansab sementara. :(

*Terjemahan susah euy.....*

WBD

hmm...
lumayan, walaupun sepi (banyak stand yg baru diisi hari sabtunya) pdhl WBD buka dr Kamis.

Selama di sana, kok ihp pd tegang semua sih?
Walaupun tak dikatakan, aku tau kok kalo banyak yg marah.
I could feel the negative emotions eventhough nobody say anything.
Eventhough (almost) everybody acted like nothing happen.

3 hari ke sana, aku terpapar emosi negatif gitu, ya akhirnya drained.
Hari minggu, tidur seharian jadinya.
Hari ini juga masih capek berat.
ditambah lagi Daddy yg emang capek abis pulang dr China kemaren...
HUAH!
Menjadi2 dah!

Butuh counter euy....

Are you take side with me?

One day, you come to me, telling me your story.
Ah, you have problem with someone...
And then....
You ask me this question of :

Are you take side with me?

BEUH! I HATE THAT QUESTION! I LOATH IT!

You know...
You can tell me stories, you can ask me some advices, you can pick which action I've provided is the best for you.

BUT!
DO NEVER EVER ASK ME TO TAKE SIDE!
Because I'm not taking side!
AND I WILL NEVER TAKE SIDE!

If you insist, then I will take side with the right one.
whether it's you or your "enemy".

You are my friend, but that doesnt mean your enemy is also mine either.

Aku paling sebel sama orang2 yg, kalo bermasalah dengan si A, ngajak2 temen2nya biar ikut musuhin si A juga. Pdhl belum tentu si A yg salah dan juga mereka (temen2nya) ga ada masalah langsung dengan si A.
Ih, beraninya main keroyokan! PENGECUT! CHICKEN!

For example, I have trouble with you, I'm going to sort it out with you. NOT WITH YOU AND YOUR "GANKS".
IF I couldnt sort it out with you, then I'm going to someone to GET SOME ADVICES. That's all!
I dont ask this person to sided with me. I cant... because I STILL HAVE MY OWN DIGNITY!

IF you ask me to be the middleman, fine, I can do that.
but if you ask me to take side. sorry, you have waste your time.
I need to stay in the middle, to have some points of views, to be free.
I need to listen to both side's stories, to get the whole picture, the big picture.
If I dont know the other side? then I'll show you your parts.
If I think you are doing right or wrong, I'LL TELL YOU THE WAY IT IS!
You are right? then I'll tell you : "You're right"
You are wrong? then I'll tell you : You're wrong."
NOT CONTRARILY!

Let's underline this :

I will tell you the TRUTH, no matter how hard for you to hear.
At least you heard it from someone who care.

You dont like what you heard from me? Fine... just walk away... you know where the door is.
I'm just telling you my point of view. I'm just giving you advices you asked.

Dont hate me for the bitter pill I I gave you...
Because the pills will cure you.
But hate me for the sweets I gave you...
Because the sweets will kill you.

Nekad

Kemaren Sabtu, aku ke undangan Ucoq&Dewi.
Dari rumah, pake rok batik, pake sendal pesta, dan ga lupa bawa sepatu sendal yg biasa.
Sampe sana... *sial* Rokku kepanjangan! keinjek terus!
Gajah2 pada tereak2 : "Cantik bgt!" Doh! MALUUUUU!!!!

Abis salam sama Ucoq&Dewi, makan2!
*sial lagi* Doh! ngambil kebanyakan, dan ngeliat yg lain udah selesai makan drtd, aku ga tega deh ngabisinnya.. huhuhuhu... Sayang jg sih... tapi Gajah2 imut itu udah nungguin aku selesai makan..
Dan selesai makan, foto2 deh sama Gajah2 dan Penganten.

Aku tau kalo abis acara Ucoq&Dewi ini, mau rame2 ke TMII dan Plumpang. Terus H-1 Plumpang dibatalin, soalnya Bunda Judith ga bisa.
Yaolo! Ternyata jadi jg mereka ke TMII! Aku TAK BAWA BAJU GANTI! Gimana dong?
"Ya udah, Trin, gpp kok!"
"Ikut aja deh! pls?? Ya? Ya? Ya?"
Henny bilang ke Pak Uku : "Boleh yaaaa??" ROTFL
HOW COULD I REFUSE THOSE PUPPY EYES??

Ya udah, aku & Pak Uku jln duluan, dan nyampe duluan di gerbang TMII, aku sms Henny : "Hen, aku tunggu di sebelah Teh Botol"
Henny bales : "HA? Udah nyampe???"
YAOLO!! Mereka pake nyasar dulu!!! Pantes lama!!!

Akhirnya Henny sms lagi, "Trin, lgsg masuk aja, tunggu di keong mas."
Di tempat parkir., mereka keluar dr mobil UDAH GANTI BAJU SEMUA!
DOH! *gaplokin satu2!* Ga ada sense of crisis-nya bgt siii??
YAOLO! MATEK GUE!
Jadi deh... aku SATU-SATUNYA yg ke TMII DRESSED UP!
Ribet2 sendiri, angkat2 rok batik yang kepanjangan itu.

Ya udah lah.. Salah sendiri pake nekadz ikut ke TMII pdhl ga bawa baju ganti!
Have funnnnn!!
Aku ga tau pada mau nonton apaan di IMAX, tapi yg jelas ga jadi tuh...
hihihihi... OQ n Partner dateng, terus Azil join jg setelah nyasar waktu nyari gedung t4 Ucoq&Dewi.

Jadi lengkapnya :
- Jipeng
- Deden
- Azil
- Heri
- Indra
- Lea
- Mbu
- Bundhoot
- Henny
- Adis
- Shinta
- OQ n Partner (sorry, Q, ga tau namanya)
dan jg yg cuma ikut sampe t4 Ucoq : Awan, Fahmi&Mia, dan Big.

Terus kita naek kereta gantung. Aku, Henny, Sinta dan Adis berempat satu kereta.
Sebelum naek, aku bilang "Gimana kalo berhenti di tengah?" Sinta lgsg TEGANG! hihihihihihi...
Di atas, kita kepanasan! huhuhuhu... GILA! PANAS BGT EUY! Baju dan Rokku mpe BASAH! Baru waktu muter balik, anginnya lumayan... sepoi2, TQ Windy..

Abis dr Kereta Gantung, haus.. haus.. yang lain makan (err.. atau minum?) Es Teler. Aku terpaksa cuma beli Aqua, baru sembuh dari Flu sih...
di tengah2 ngobrol, WESLY nelp Bundhoot! Hihihi... Bunda godain aja, "lagi makan Es teler", aku bayangin di sana Wesly nyumpah2 deh... ROTFL

Kenyang Es teler, qta ke mesjid, sholat, yg ga sholat nunggu di "borobudur".
Ngobrol2... Foto2 (eh yg ini sih nyaris setiap saat).



Liat Jam, WAH??? Jam 4 lebih!! GILA GILA GILA!
Jam 6 harus udah di acara lain! ya udah, pamit pulang, sementara yg lain masih nerusin ke Starbuck, *nagih Mbu, HOT CHOCOLATTE-kuuuuuu..... Kapan???*

Pulang2, mandi, terus siap2, sementara sodara2 mulai dateng.
Dan... ANOTHER PARTY'S GOIN!!
Dresscode : Black n White.
Theme : Surprise Party!!!

Hihihihi.. Emang udah dasarnya semua jahil, jd Si Ibu ga gitu kaget... "udah curiga dr pagi," ktnya waktu Pidato! ROTFL

Aduh!! ASYIK BERAT KEMAREN TUH!
Gila! Gue bener2 NEKAD ABIZ ke TMII cuma bawa 50RB di DOMPET! 30rb buat tiket masuk... beli Aqua 3rb. YAOLOOOO!! sisanya??? Buat TOL...

Heran, Kesambet apaan gue kemaren???
- Di Pesta Ucoq, makan ga abis!
- Ke TMII pake rok batik panjang yang keinjek melulu kalo ga diangkat.
- Duit pas2an! Habis pula!
- Dibayarin euy naik Kereta gantungnya :">

*colek2 Henny, Bundhoot, Sinta, Adis dan Lea... MUACH!

Rages of mine

I know I have never been able to be a good friend.
All I do is spoiling everything.
That's Why HE keep sending me "baddies" to be my friends.
Meanwhile the "goodies" are gone long time ago because they were hurted by me.
The Baddies? stay until they finish drinking the honey I made for them, and then left.

I realize one thing : the insecurity inside of me has made me a baddy.
My body languages keep screaming for "STAY AWAY FROM ME! or I hurt you again n again!"

May be I should close my doors, every single door I have, to avoid me hurt n getting hurted.
May be U think I'm stupid, chicken or, worse, Give up.
Anything U said is right. I dont care...

I dont care!
Thanks to U to teach me how not to care!

I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO SAY THAT!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT!
- Not caring,
- Leave whenever I want to,
- Not thinking about those people's Health, Happiness, Sadness, etc,
- Not trying to be a good company,
- Be selfish!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE DO THOSE!

But no...
HE The Almighty has never allow me to be a person like that!
I was made to feel the pains.
I accepted that.
I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT EVER SINCE LONG TIME AGO!
but Why people keep remind me to that?
Why people keep remind me of pains?

I AM WHAT I AM!
I AM WHAT HE MADE ME TO BE!

The Rages inside of me is getting bigger everytime I got hurted or hurt!

"Why did they do that?"
"Why did I do that?"

The same questions turn on and on for whole my life.
But through all that...
I have been wondering about these :
- Wonder why I am able to smile after getting hurted (tho' sometime I take time to recover)
- Wonder how I feel guilty for what they've done to me (by saying: it was my mistake)
- Wonder how I fell hard n get up again
- Wonder how I mirroring everybody.

Eventho I keep my rages, funny how it hidden when I'm on top condition.
Eventho I hid my insecurities, funny how it shows when I'm down

Why cant I be like you?
You are able to walk away like nothing had happened.
You are able to talk to them like nothing had happened.
You are able to leave without feeling guilty, NOT EVEN A BIT!
You are able not to think about your "victims".
HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?
I am wondering about people like these!

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YEAH YEAH!
I'M DOWN ONCE MORE!
WITHOUT KNOWING WHY!

Michelle

Michelle, ma belle.
These are words that go together well,
My Michelle.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble,
Tres bien ensemble.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
That's all I want to say.
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand.

I need you, I need you, I need you.
I need to make you see,
Oh, what you mean to me.
Until I do I'm hoping you will
Know what I mean.

I love you.

I want you, I want you, I want you.
I think you know by now
I'll get to you somehow.
Until I do I'm telling you so
You'll understand.

I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand, my Michelle.

Hihihi.. LOVE IT!
Used to listen to this on tape n mp3 of The Complete Beatles' Album.
hmm.. One of my fave songs of The Beatles.
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Lagi bingung...
Besok sabtu ada kopdar di Bandung dan di Jakarta.
Kampung Gajah or IHP?
Both are my precious ones. (hehehe.. a bit too much, really)
ah, pusing...
Let it be deh!

It's been Lovely days

I dont know...
I feel Loved, Cared..
Been Smilin' and smilin',
even my bones have been very painfully,
Not even my Mom's preaches can stop my lovely days.
(And she preached even more when I just simply smile at her when she preached!)

"... I dont know much,
But I know I love you
And That may be All I need to know..."

It's been three months since the first time I felt like this.
Without knowing about what or who make me feel this way.
May be I dont have to know anyway.

God, I turn this love back to Thee.
for it belongs to You, comes from You, given by You to me.
You are blessing me with so much love.
You have been pouring me with love untill it spills out of the glass.
untill Mom scared.. hihihihi...

I turn this love back to Thee..
I turn this love back to Thee..
I turn this love back to Thee..

Wew!

Vitamin abis kemaren, hari ini lgsg sariawan.

Batere abis kemaren, terpaksa beli di toko buku dulu (batere kalkulator).

Laper tengah malem, ngembat Yam (semacem ubi), huek! ga ada rasanya.
Tanya Mom, ktnya mestinya dicoel ke susu kentel.
Hayah! Kenapa kemaren ga bilang?
Kan bisa sekalian beli...

Siang makan kekenyangan, maagnya sakit.
Malem makan kebanyakan, maagnya makin sakit.

Halah!
Hihihihi...
Duduts ah!
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Berbunga2 ga jelas, plus ada seberkas rindu yang menyelip
Somebody miss me...
So Crazy It hurts!

like this song of Natalie Cole :

Even though its been so long,
my love for you keeps going strong
I remember the things that we used to do,
a kiss in the rain

Til the sun shined through,
Id try to deny it,
but Im still in love with you

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy,
ever since you went away

Every hour of every day,
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do,
there's just no getting over you

I can see the love shining in your eyes,
and it comes as such a sweet surprise
If seeings believing its worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,
we're starting forever now,
and I miss you like crazy

I miss you like crazy,
ever since you went away,
every hour of every day

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you baby,
a love like ours will never end
Just touch me and we're there again

---Musical interlude---

Just one night
and we'll have that magic feeling
like we used to do

Hold on tight
and whatever comes our way
we're gonna make it through
If seeings believing its worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,
we're starting forever now
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy
No matter what I say or do
theres just no getting over you

And I miss you (baby),
I miss you (baby),
all the tender love you gave me
When a feeling gets this strong,
you know the real thing come along

And I miss you,
I miss you like crazy baby,
only your sweet love can save me,

I miss you like crazy,
a love like ours will never end
Just touch me and we're there again,

Miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy

BUT there's a problem! and it is :

WHO MISS ME LIKE CRAZY till the vibrations hurt??
*sigh* sometimes I hate to have these senses.

The Pursuit of Happyness

The Pursuit of Happyness, film keren.

Sayang bgt, kita masuknya waktu film udah mulai 5 menit kali.
Ceritanya touchy deh...
True Story lho!
Jd Chris Gardner (Will Smith) jualan alat pengukur massa tulang untuk menghidupi istri dan anaknya. Setelah keliling menjajakan alat itu ke rumah sakit, tempat praktek dokter, tersisa sekian buah.
Linda (Thandie Newton), istrinya udah mulai ga tahan waktu sisa alat itu ga kejual2... selama 2 bulan nunggak bayar sewa apartemen. Linda mulai ngancem bawa anaknya ninggalin Chris.
Dan Chris ngamuk, "You may leave, but Christopher (Jaden Smith) stay with me!"

Ada perkataan Chris kepada Christopher yang keren bgt :

"DO NOT LET PEOPLE TELL YOU WHAT YOU CAN OR CANT DO. NOT EVEN ME!"

A very nice advice, really...

apakah Chris berhasil menjualnya sampe habis?
apakah Linda kembali bersama mereka?

Terus yang perlu diperhatikan : Aktingnya Jaden Smith yang NATURAL!!!
Aduh, dasar udah bakat dari ibu-bapaknya ya...
kalo Jaden bener2 serius, bisa kalah deh Will Smith nantinya..

Nonton aja sendiri deh yaaaa...
Yang Jelas, WORTH IT deh!

(DUH! tuh kan.. kalo pengen nulis, malah hilang kata2 yang td seliweran!)

:D :D :D :D

Kemaren nonton Music N Lyrics ber-4 sama Juli, n My Sisters.
Lucu jg sih, tapi sayangnya, film ini bukan jenis film yg bakal keinget terus. Begitu film habis, ya udah... habis. Finish! Keluar dr bioskop, udah lupa ceritanya.

Hugh Grant bergaya lapanpuluhan??? NORAK DEH!!!
Yg lumayan menarik perhatian di film ini adalah si Cora dengan segala keeksentrikannya. Top jg actingnya si Haley Bennet ini!

Selesai nonton, Juli lgsg pulang. Aku n sisters jln2 dulu, terus ketemu sama Ua. Ngobrol2 bentar, terus Qta pisah. Ua terusin belanja, qta ke Nando's. MAKANNNN!!!
Pulangnya jam 9, aku nonton lagi di rumah.
SSSTTTT.... jgn bil2 my Mom ya, aku bobonya jam 5 pagi tadi! *Parentless Nights*

BORED!

bosen lagi...
Ga tau mau ngapain lagi...

mau nonton, remote dipegang Mom.
mau browsing, blogwalking, dsb, ogah2an.
mau baca, kok ya males...
mau chatting, udah pada off..
mau main game, gameku abis trialnya.

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Pusing, batere hearing aidsku cepet abisnya euy!
satu rol isinya 6 batere = 75rb.
satu batere cuma cukup buat 3-7 hari.
tergantung pemakaian, kalo dipake tiap hari dari bangun mpe tidur lagi (kalo mau tidur, dicopot) ya cuma tahan 3 hari.
biasanya sekali beli 2 rol.
hitung sendiri deh sebulan mesti beli berapa rol.
gila kan?

Itu baru batere, belum vitamin2 (Yeah, my drugs! Long Live SIXTIES! :P ) yang begitu habis lgsg sariawan banyak bgt.

huah!

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hihihihihi... ah tidur aja!

Song in my head today

Jambalaya
by The Carpenters

Good-bye Joe, he gotta go, me oh my oh
He gotta go-pole the pirogue down the bayou
His Yvonne the sweetest one, me oh my oh
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

Thibodaux, Fontaineaux the place is buzzin'
A Kin-folk come to see Yvonne by the dozen
Dress in style the go hog wild, me oh my oh
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

(*) Jambalaya and a crawfish pie and fillet gumbo
For tonight, I'm a-gonna see my my-my cher a mi-o
Pick guitar, fill fruit jar and be gay-o
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

Settle down far from town get him a pirogue
And he'll catch all the fish in the bayou
Swap his mon to buy Yvonne what she need-o
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

ASYIK BGT LAGUNYA!
Tapi nyoba2 dengerin dr cd-nya, ga kedengaran :(

Sumpah bingung!

Masalah ini dimulai dari aku ngirim lagu "Raindrops keep falling on my head" ke salah satu milis internal. terus berlanjut ke sixties.
Semua tahu kalo jaman Sixties itu terkenal WILD, Flower Generations, DRUGS, Peace dsb kan? nah, aku posting : "DRUGS?? YESS!!" Kemudian aku nulis "(namanya) enak di OZ. Gampang dpt drugs, tinggal cari di sekitar kampus".

Eh, dia ngamuk2! "ELO BENER2 MENGHINA GUE! Sorry yee.. gue ga serendah itu dapet masalah lari ke drugs!"

Lho??? emang aku nuduh dia make ya??? hihihihihi.. sumpah bingung!
baca emailnya, aku ngakak bgt deh!
kepalang tanggung dia udah panas, ya aku gangguin aja >:)
sampe akhirnya dia bales : "CAPEK GUE NGURUSIN EMAIL LO! YOU WASTING MY TIME N BANDWIDTH!"
Ngakak lagi dah! Akhirnya aku tulis aja : "Then Why You Keep Answering My E-mail anyway?"
N She stopped n quit.
Told you, Didnt I? I let you won last time we fought, but NOT this time!

Puas jg sih nyalurin jahilnya, tapi akibatnya itu lho...
Gue dimoderate di milis bikinan gue sendiri! ROTFL!

n Herda's got the point! :)

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Td siang, aku makan decolgen, abis rasanya kyk mau pilek sih...
jd pas mau ngaji, ngantuuuukkkk bgttttt...
eh, saved by mommy yang ngobrol sama pak ustad kelamaan, pak ustad n mom ngobrol soal hajinya pak ustad kemaren.
Aku nunggu di sofa ruang keluarga, mpe TIDUR!
ngajinya jd cuma 15 menit doang *ngikik*
Thx Mom! aku jd bs bobo! :D

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Errrgggh.. dasar!
Sumpah bingung, kok ada ya orang yang seperti itu...
ah, dasar.. kok kepikiran aja?
Baru kali ini liat orang kyk kebakaran jenggot cuma gr2 itu.

Sumpah deh! Bingung bgt!
ROTFL!
Forget it! Forget it! Forget it!
*masih ngakak*

PUSYINK!

Gr2 maag ga bisa dipenuhin, jdnya masuk angin!
Kalo mau ga masuk angin, maag harus penuh. Sedangkan kekenyangan dikiiittttt.. aja udah mual!
Udah gitu, gr2 masuk angin, sariawan deh! Tambah susah makan.
Serba salah deh!

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Kemaren hari sabtu, ke Planggi ngumpul2 sama 4L.
Lama lho! Dari jam 1 siang sampe jam 7 malem kita di sana! Hihihi..
Ga kerasa deh sakit2 selama di sana. TQ All.

Talking about sakit, udah 2 minggu ini sakit2 tulangnya. Sakitnya itu mpe kdg2 kaku bgt deh. blm lagi dari bahu sampe siku, keras bgt, selain gr2 masuk angin, salah tidur kyknya.

Fullmoon kali ini dengan gerhana penuh mulai jam 3 sekian menit sampe jam 6(?)
huaaaaa.... mengapa jam 3??? mengapa tidak mulai jam 10 aja supaya aku bisa nonton?
hihihi... seperti biasa, aku kirim sms werewolf warning, dan balesannya lucu2!

Hari Minggu, Arisan kelurga! dasar Ibu2, setel musik trus poco2, rhumba dan chacha. masing2 pamer gerakan, "satu dua tiga empat, ke samping, satu, dua, satu, dua dst dst".
Sementara anak2 naik turun terus, dan Bapak2, selain ngejaga, gangguin anak2.
hihihihi... dasar keluarga jahil! Anak yg paling kecil pun doyan ngegangguin! colek2, terus diam pura2 ga tau. I Love them!

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I'm back!
kembali ke tulisan yg pendek2 dan ringkas seperti dulu.
Gila! Terlalu banyak yg seliweran di kepala, sampe2 bingung sendiri mau nulis yg mana dulu!
Dan begitu mulai nulis, hilang itu yg td seliweran!
GRRRR.......

I Love It!

I love it when you sms me just to say "Hello".
I love it when you sms me just to say "I'm Ok".
I love it when you sms me just telling me nonsense things.
hihihihi... unbelievable, isn't it?

After Mas Gun sms me yesterday, Kadir sms me too!
Just for talking about things..
It's enough to make my day!
It's enough to make me smile whole days!

Funny but True!

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"Kartu Keparat"ku udah lunas! tinggal ngambil aja nanti kopdaran. >:)
Asyik2! Nanti ajak main adek2ku deh!
Dan kapan2 kalo ngumpul di kuali bocor, aku bawa ah!
Hihihi... Hurray!
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Been smiling like crazy all day!
eventhough my bones' been aching.

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And...

Beware!
Bakat Jahilku lagi meledak2!
adek2ku kena terus tuh.. >:)

Terus untuk temen2 tersayang yg sedang sakit, sabar ya...
Emang lagi musim sakit sih!
Apalagi yg rutin aku jailin, *lirik2*, lebih sabar lagi yaa...
Hihihihi... *kabur*

Learning to love yourself

The Greatest Love of All
by George Benson

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

Compare it with this one :

I've Never Been To Me
By Charlene

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me

Both are about KNOWING YOUR SELF.
Orang di lagu pertama Sudah menerima keadaan dirinya, sementara orang di lagu kedua blm bisa menerima dirinya.
"Learning to Love yourself" VS "I've been to paradise But I've never been to me"
The first one has already love himself but the second one hasn't.
Why? because he has FOUND himself, meanwhile she has so many regrets to find herself.

I'd love to be the first one, I'm trying to be.
BUT sometimes It is HARD Enough to love yourself when those people keep asking you to do more, meanwhile you have reached the best of you!
And that's make you hate yourself for you cant fulfil their requests.
It is HARD enough to see The Disappointed Look in their eyes, faces, and/or body languages, when you cant do what they want!
And it getting HARDER when they keep saying : "you can do better than this, d'you know?"

And the hardest part coming from inside!
"Oh come on, try harder!" while you tired enough...

I was almost cracked up when I was in my last year of college.
Because of the pressures inside and outside, and yes, the hardest one was coming from inside of me. I hate myself for cant do this and that.
Getting worse by the people around me, the excitements and the HOPES from their eyes.
I hate myself, I hate them, I hate you, I hate everybody!

When finally I got this A.md or A.mad or A.Md (oh, whatever!) behind my name, I dont think I'm worth enough to have it. I dont write it anywhere, unless when I have to. (And That's why I forget how to write it, hihihihihi).
I'm FAR From it... Much further from it.

The more I learn, the smaller I become.
The more I remember, the more I forget.
The more I have, the more I lose.
The more I give, the more I asked.
The more I love, the more I hate.

Funny But TRUE!