Ah....

Ternyata... masih begini saja.
Belum sepenuhnya lepas dari hiperbilirubin, Ga akan kembali seperti dulu lagi.
Ga akan 100% lagi.

Well, whatever...

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I'M GLAD TO FIND MY DIFFYERS BACK!!!
AUFI! EDWIN! KADIR!
*MUACH MUACH MUACH!!!*
I'd love to see you all again, my dear!!!!
Forgive me to bring you some shock, Win... ;))
I'm expecting your coming to my home next August, ok Win?
Dont forget to take Aufi and one of your snake for me, Sweetums.

Say, pls send me XP Setup CD, would you?

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And I've finished reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.
Really, You'd think it happened only in one night, the Camp Scenes..
And DOBBY!

It was fun @ QB and Aksara.
(Ah, Why Cant I write about Funtimes in blog?)

And The Dream!
You hugged me from behind my back..
the way you hugged me like you wont release me again..
When I turned around to see you...
I saw you, wearing huge smile, and your face shone brightly.
It seems to me that you were a happiest man in the world.

I wish it happen to you soon or later.
I really hope that happen to you.

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Ah, Mommy start to preach again...
I'll continue writing next time.

Huee????

Lepas dari hiperbilirubin, dateng penyakit lain..
halah! hihihihihi...
jadi gampang pusing, mual dsb.
Dan diomel Emak gr2 sms-an waktu sakit kemaren bikin tagihan yg .... *BUSYET BGT GEDENYA!*

Td siang pergi ikut Mom ke Poinsquare setelah ngelayat temen haji Mom.
cuma ke supermarketnya doang sih.. tapi lumayan bikin pusingku kambuh lagi.
But I didnt tell Mom. No! She doesnt need to know this.

Akhirnya UPS Baru dtg...
merknya LAPLACE PHASOR 1200.
tapi ada yg bikin pusing : colokan monitornya bagaimana????
monitorku ga ngambil listrik dr PC, lgsg ke colokan listrik.
nah masalahnya UPS ini cuma ada colokan2 .... (duh istilahnya apa sih??)
Kompie colok ke ups, monitor dan Kabel telp (buat internet) jg ke ups.
Sementara monitorku tipe colokannya bukan dr PC!
jd kalo mati listrik... kompie tetep nyala tapi monitor mati!
PERCUMA kan???
Ada kabel adaptornya ga ya? namanya apaan sih?
nanti mau beli!

WIMODE GILA!
apanya yg 245,5 KBPS??? Nyatanya cuma 0,6 KBPS!!!
aku mau dl software buat ups-nya ajaaaa.. dari td sore jam 3 mpe sekarang jam 11 mlm masih DELAPAN PERSEN DOANG!!!
udah pake GETRIGHT pdhl!!
:((

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Oh iya, kemaren ikut talkshow Harry Potter di QB Kemang
Tamunya : Rama dan Utri
Rama dkk-nya cukup bergairah ikut acara talkshow-nya.
tapi Utri? Manyun dan diem terus deh.. gerakan tubuhnya seperti males atau ga pede ikutan talkshow-nya.
Sayang bgt deh..

I told you, Anne, about the Audiobook dan the Braille Books :)
It was your first time to see the audiobook looks like, wasnt it?
hihihihi... I heard the sound but as usual it was just mumbling sounds to me.

And .. :"> :"> :"> "NE!" hihihi... JADI MALU!!!
Suaraku pasti kenceng bgt deh mpe Bunda Yessi kaget gitu!
maksudku ngasih tau Anne spy ngambil mic dr Rama (yg udah nyodorin micnya buat diambil Anne). Tapi..
hihiihihi....

Ketemu lagi sama Hadi, Anne, Wahyu, dan Mita...!!!
I miss you all!!

See you again tomorrow At kuali bocor!

2 Minggu jadi 4 Minggu!

Dari yang 2 mgg trus ditambah lagi 2 mgg...
Jadi total 4 mgg Bedrest.
Huah, jadi bener2 terisolir, bosen... SUPERBOSAN!
Hihihihi... Gara2 Superbosen, aku ngomel2, marah2, down, mpe ada beberapa orang yg jd korban kebosenanku. *Lirik Abi, Lia, Nie, Edo, dll.
Sorry ya sayyyy... bener2 SORRYYYYY BGT!

Dan sepertinya aku ga akan pernah sembuh bgt deh.
Ga boleh capek atau kambuh lagi!

Kemudian selama sakit dan superbosen itu, acara IHP di Aksara Kemang, yg tempatnya sebenernya deket bgt dr rumah (bisa jalan kaki), jadi kelewat. AIH BETEEEEEEE!!!!
Dan acara Kopdaran Gajah yang biasanya aku bela2in ikutan juga ga bisa ikutan!
Tambah BT lagi!

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Kemaren arisan keluarga di Puncak, GILA SUPER MACET!!! Yang mestinya cuma 1-2 jam ini jadi 7 jam!!! Dr rmh jam 9 sampe di Vila Keluarga di Cipanas JAM EMPAT SORE! LAPERRRRRR ga makan siang!
Aku sms sm Yaya, Yaya bilang ada bis masuk jurang di Ciloto.
Ha? Ya pantes aja atuh!

Seperti biasa, jail-jail semua dan pasti ada yang nangis.
Sayang ga lengkap! Kurang 2 keluarga :Kakang dan keluarga tebet.

Aku masih pengen nulis, tapi udah disuruh off. :(

Hmm.. kapan ol lagi yaaa??? :(

Hiperbilirubin lagi

Well...
What Can I Say?

Senin Pagi, bangun2 lgsg muntah cairan kuning pahit. Dan aku udah curiga kalo itu cairan empedu.
Malem ke dokter, terus Selasa Pagi cek darah.
Hasilnya : Bilirubin totalku ada 4 mg/dl. Sedangkan normalnya : di bawah 1 mg/dl
Seperti dugaanku, Dokter bilang : Hiperbilirubin.
Dokter cuma bilang : Istirahat di tempat tidur selama 2 mgg.

Ini yg ketigakalinya aku hiperbilirubin gini.
Pengalaman terakhir waktu kul dulu, disuruh makan yg manis2 (permen, ah pokoknya Gula), Kerang, udang (Zat besi deh).

Jadi terpaksa off dulu selama 2 mgg yaaaa.. kecuali kalo Parents ngasih ijin ol sebentar, sekedar pengusir bosan.

See yaa... :)

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*Copy-paste dari Blog Om Pri

Jawaban untuk "Notyrfriend"

Hihihi...
I clapped at your effort on memorizing my blog's address, opened your internet explorer, typed this blog's address (http://loopeen.blogspot.com/), pressed enter or clicked "Go!". And then patiently waited for my blog to appear on your internet explorer (by telkomnyet, it took a long time to be fully loaded, I know, a very looonnngggg time, really...), and scrolled down to find my shoutbox, thought of a nickname and a fake web to make sure that I will not know your true id. Then ah... you've found one good name : "Ntyrfriend". based on "Not Your Friend" means "Not my friend". I got the point...
Then you wrote those "hatemails", Carefully thinking and writing not to show your true id and hoping that I will be intimidated by your writings.

I'm touched, really... I admire it.
BUT You've forgot TWO simple things : I am a freak and I am far more used to it.
For I was treatened by most of my school fellows the way you do now. Even worse than that, in fact.
And, as a freak, the more you threatened me like that, the happier I become. Because you have made my day colourful.
As to that, I'm thankful. Bless You!

One Question for you, Is that all you got for me? If it is, I feel terrible sorry for you. Like I said above : My school fellows treatened me far worse than that.

Tapi... Sudahlah... Gue ga mau memperpanjang masalah yang gue sendiri ga tau ujung pangkalnya. Sedih gue liat lo mempermalukan diri sendiri kyk gini, say...
Dont go biting your nails too much, because it'll bleed.
Untuk "teriakan"mu selanjutnya, gue hapus biar lo ga malu2in diri sendiri.

This would be my last word for you. If you still want to continue the quarrelling, It's all up to you. I'm not going to play your game, dear :)

GBU Always

Susahnya jadi Nocturnal

As a nocturnal, otakku bisa berpikir dengan jelas pada saat orang2 sudah tidur dengan pulasnya. Aku udah nyadarin itu sejak mulai kuliah dulu, saat sedang ber"nostalgia" dan mengingat bagaimana aku begitu susah dibangunkan pagi2 sehingga selalu telat setengah jam atau lebih ke sekolah padahal jarak antara sekolah dan rumahku cuma 5 menit pake mobil kalo lagi ga macet. Sampe2 Mom bawa aku ke Sanatorium Darmawangsa untuk berkonsultasi dengan psikolog yg bernama Bu Tita selama bertahun-tahun. Ga berhasil dengan Bu Tita, Mom bawa aku ke MMC ke Psikolog Prof Titi. tapi di sini cuma sebentar.

Aku menyadari aku baru bisa mengerjakan tugas2 kuliah (dan pekerjaanku saat ini) pada waktu yg ganjil bagi orang2, yaitu setelah jam 10 malam. Aku bisa saja mengerjakannya sebelum jam 10, tapi ga bisa maksimal karena ga bisa konsentrasi, jadinya cuma satu paragraf atau kurang. Sementara sesudah jam 10 (lebih baik lagi sesudah jam 12-1 malam sampai subuh menjelang) bisa berlembar2 yang selesai diterjemahin.

Namun Mom ga mau dan ga bisa terima kalo mengerjakannya pada saat2 "cemerlang" itu. Padahal siang-siang tuh bawaan ngantuk melulu. dipaksa ngerjain juga cuma dapet maksimal 1 halaman! Kalo pergi dengan Mom siang2, pasti ada omelan mengenai nguap2 yang cukup sering dan tidur selama di jalan. "Siang nguap melulu! Ga bagus!"
Mau ngerjain terjemahan juga... EEUUHHH! BUNTU ABIS! Sementara jam malemku (harus udah tidur) jam 1!
Sampai terpikirkan mengembalikan saja buku itu ke GPU. Malu ga selesai2!

Bagaimana bisa mengerjakannya kalo gitu????

Tak tahu mengapa....

Sebelum aku tahu akan artinya cinta
Kutelah dibawanya ke sana
Setelah dia pergi, baru aku mengerti
Kutelah jatuh cinta kepadanya...

#Oh... Aku rindu
Katakan padanya aku rindu
Oh Burung... Nyanyikanlah
katakan padanya aku rindu

Lagu "ini rindu"-nya Alm. Farid Hardja berputar2 terus di kepalaku.
Lupa lanjutannya,
Ada sih satu lagi lagu yg sedang "mengganggu"ku, cuma lupa judul lagunya.


Hmm... Sial abis...
Baru nyadarin ini : Tiap kali aku mulai melupakannya, mulai ga mikirin lagi, dia nongol gitu aja di mimpi!
Yang lebih nyebelin lagi : nongolnya diem aja, cuma ngeliatin muka cemberut seperti ga rela aku lupain dia!
Yaolo! Beraninya ngasih tanda cuma di mimpi! Without word at all!
Sumpah, Chicken Abis!
Huh! Sini deh LO! Jgn cuma berani nongol di mimpi! BE A MAN! JANTANLAH KAU!

Halah! ngomel2 gini di blog jg percuma deh! ga akan dibaca sama dia!
Andaikan beneran dia baca jg, tampaknya ga akan ngaruh sama sekali.
egonya yang segede alam semesta pasti ngehalangin perasaan yang sesungguhnya.

DASAR CHICKEN!! Petok-petokkkk!!!
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Mudah2an hari sabtu flu sembuh, terus ke Planggi
- Beli PCMCIA buat Telkomsel Flash.
- Ikut rapat
- SELESAIIN TERJEMAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Deadlocked

Walaupun aku udah dikasih tahu dr bulan lalu spy siap2 koneksi diputus, ga nyangka cepet aja, jadi jg kemaren diblok dan Mom berencana ga akan bayar lagi.

Mom sih keliatannya seneng aja koneksi diputus, ktnya : "Kamu ga akan tidur malem lagi"
Duh, Mom... Kalo koneksi diputus, mau ga mau, terpaksa pake dialup. Sedangkan di mana2 yg namanya Dialup tuh yaa... murahnya jam 1-5 pagi toh???
Well... You have been very wrong, Mom, in thinking I wouldnt be sleeping At One!

Sempet ngamuk jg td gr2 Dnet jg diputus! :(
And Mom didnt tell me about that.

Dan hari ini aku pake telkomnyet, sebelumnya aku bilang sama Mom biar siap2 bayar telp+telkomnyet 1 jt-an.
Jadi, Mom sayang... kalo tagihan lbh dr itu, pls PLS DONT BLAME ME, ok?

U've closed my window to the world.

Yang aku pikirin cuma "Gimana caranya nge-mods milis dan jagain forum tanpa kabelnet?"
On that case, must ask Teh Ninit to give Rara another permission to aprrove messages of new members.
Apalagi mods ihp yg lain ga pernah ngecek Folder Spam!

Sms Bunda, aku ansab lagi dr gajah sementara, mpe ga-tau-kapan.
Sms Henny, Edo, Winda, dll, ngasih tau kl i-net diputus.
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Bakal Flu lagi nih... tenggorokan udah gatel bgt, udah mulai mampet2...

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L'il Faza is beautifull!
I'm glad to see her and her mother again.
despite the fact that I was "GA PUAS" karena ada orang lain di situ (her Hubby).

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Gusi berdarah terus, sariawan, mimisan, plus gejala flu.
pusing mau sikat giginya! pdhl tu sikat udah yg soft.
Kemaren ketauan jg sama Mom, beratku sekarang 43,5 kg.
Alhasil kena omel abis2an!

Dah ah! Bobo dulu.
Selasa, Insyaallah, ol lg di Cibitung (tawaran dari Pa, "ga ada yg make")
Mesti milih2 lagi milis2 yg mau diansab sementara. :(

*Terjemahan susah euy.....*

WBD

hmm...
lumayan, walaupun sepi (banyak stand yg baru diisi hari sabtunya) pdhl WBD buka dr Kamis.

Selama di sana, kok ihp pd tegang semua sih?
Walaupun tak dikatakan, aku tau kok kalo banyak yg marah.
I could feel the negative emotions eventhough nobody say anything.
Eventhough (almost) everybody acted like nothing happen.

3 hari ke sana, aku terpapar emosi negatif gitu, ya akhirnya drained.
Hari minggu, tidur seharian jadinya.
Hari ini juga masih capek berat.
ditambah lagi Daddy yg emang capek abis pulang dr China kemaren...
HUAH!
Menjadi2 dah!

Butuh counter euy....

Are you take side with me?

One day, you come to me, telling me your story.
Ah, you have problem with someone...
And then....
You ask me this question of :

Are you take side with me?

BEUH! I HATE THAT QUESTION! I LOATH IT!

You know...
You can tell me stories, you can ask me some advices, you can pick which action I've provided is the best for you.

BUT!
DO NEVER EVER ASK ME TO TAKE SIDE!
Because I'm not taking side!
AND I WILL NEVER TAKE SIDE!

If you insist, then I will take side with the right one.
whether it's you or your "enemy".

You are my friend, but that doesnt mean your enemy is also mine either.

Aku paling sebel sama orang2 yg, kalo bermasalah dengan si A, ngajak2 temen2nya biar ikut musuhin si A juga. Pdhl belum tentu si A yg salah dan juga mereka (temen2nya) ga ada masalah langsung dengan si A.
Ih, beraninya main keroyokan! PENGECUT! CHICKEN!

For example, I have trouble with you, I'm going to sort it out with you. NOT WITH YOU AND YOUR "GANKS".
IF I couldnt sort it out with you, then I'm going to someone to GET SOME ADVICES. That's all!
I dont ask this person to sided with me. I cant... because I STILL HAVE MY OWN DIGNITY!

IF you ask me to be the middleman, fine, I can do that.
but if you ask me to take side. sorry, you have waste your time.
I need to stay in the middle, to have some points of views, to be free.
I need to listen to both side's stories, to get the whole picture, the big picture.
If I dont know the other side? then I'll show you your parts.
If I think you are doing right or wrong, I'LL TELL YOU THE WAY IT IS!
You are right? then I'll tell you : "You're right"
You are wrong? then I'll tell you : You're wrong."
NOT CONTRARILY!

Let's underline this :

I will tell you the TRUTH, no matter how hard for you to hear.
At least you heard it from someone who care.

You dont like what you heard from me? Fine... just walk away... you know where the door is.
I'm just telling you my point of view. I'm just giving you advices you asked.

Dont hate me for the bitter pill I I gave you...
Because the pills will cure you.
But hate me for the sweets I gave you...
Because the sweets will kill you.

Nekad

Kemaren Sabtu, aku ke undangan Ucoq&Dewi.
Dari rumah, pake rok batik, pake sendal pesta, dan ga lupa bawa sepatu sendal yg biasa.
Sampe sana... *sial* Rokku kepanjangan! keinjek terus!
Gajah2 pada tereak2 : "Cantik bgt!" Doh! MALUUUUU!!!!

Abis salam sama Ucoq&Dewi, makan2!
*sial lagi* Doh! ngambil kebanyakan, dan ngeliat yg lain udah selesai makan drtd, aku ga tega deh ngabisinnya.. huhuhuhu... Sayang jg sih... tapi Gajah2 imut itu udah nungguin aku selesai makan..
Dan selesai makan, foto2 deh sama Gajah2 dan Penganten.

Aku tau kalo abis acara Ucoq&Dewi ini, mau rame2 ke TMII dan Plumpang. Terus H-1 Plumpang dibatalin, soalnya Bunda Judith ga bisa.
Yaolo! Ternyata jadi jg mereka ke TMII! Aku TAK BAWA BAJU GANTI! Gimana dong?
"Ya udah, Trin, gpp kok!"
"Ikut aja deh! pls?? Ya? Ya? Ya?"
Henny bilang ke Pak Uku : "Boleh yaaaa??" ROTFL
HOW COULD I REFUSE THOSE PUPPY EYES??

Ya udah, aku & Pak Uku jln duluan, dan nyampe duluan di gerbang TMII, aku sms Henny : "Hen, aku tunggu di sebelah Teh Botol"
Henny bales : "HA? Udah nyampe???"
YAOLO!! Mereka pake nyasar dulu!!! Pantes lama!!!

Akhirnya Henny sms lagi, "Trin, lgsg masuk aja, tunggu di keong mas."
Di tempat parkir., mereka keluar dr mobil UDAH GANTI BAJU SEMUA!
DOH! *gaplokin satu2!* Ga ada sense of crisis-nya bgt siii??
YAOLO! MATEK GUE!
Jadi deh... aku SATU-SATUNYA yg ke TMII DRESSED UP!
Ribet2 sendiri, angkat2 rok batik yang kepanjangan itu.

Ya udah lah.. Salah sendiri pake nekadz ikut ke TMII pdhl ga bawa baju ganti!
Have funnnnn!!
Aku ga tau pada mau nonton apaan di IMAX, tapi yg jelas ga jadi tuh...
hihihihi... OQ n Partner dateng, terus Azil join jg setelah nyasar waktu nyari gedung t4 Ucoq&Dewi.

Jadi lengkapnya :
- Jipeng
- Deden
- Azil
- Heri
- Indra
- Lea
- Mbu
- Bundhoot
- Henny
- Adis
- Shinta
- OQ n Partner (sorry, Q, ga tau namanya)
dan jg yg cuma ikut sampe t4 Ucoq : Awan, Fahmi&Mia, dan Big.

Terus kita naek kereta gantung. Aku, Henny, Sinta dan Adis berempat satu kereta.
Sebelum naek, aku bilang "Gimana kalo berhenti di tengah?" Sinta lgsg TEGANG! hihihihihihi...
Di atas, kita kepanasan! huhuhuhu... GILA! PANAS BGT EUY! Baju dan Rokku mpe BASAH! Baru waktu muter balik, anginnya lumayan... sepoi2, TQ Windy..

Abis dr Kereta Gantung, haus.. haus.. yang lain makan (err.. atau minum?) Es Teler. Aku terpaksa cuma beli Aqua, baru sembuh dari Flu sih...
di tengah2 ngobrol, WESLY nelp Bundhoot! Hihihi... Bunda godain aja, "lagi makan Es teler", aku bayangin di sana Wesly nyumpah2 deh... ROTFL

Kenyang Es teler, qta ke mesjid, sholat, yg ga sholat nunggu di "borobudur".
Ngobrol2... Foto2 (eh yg ini sih nyaris setiap saat).



Liat Jam, WAH??? Jam 4 lebih!! GILA GILA GILA!
Jam 6 harus udah di acara lain! ya udah, pamit pulang, sementara yg lain masih nerusin ke Starbuck, *nagih Mbu, HOT CHOCOLATTE-kuuuuuu..... Kapan???*

Pulang2, mandi, terus siap2, sementara sodara2 mulai dateng.
Dan... ANOTHER PARTY'S GOIN!!
Dresscode : Black n White.
Theme : Surprise Party!!!

Hihihihi.. Emang udah dasarnya semua jahil, jd Si Ibu ga gitu kaget... "udah curiga dr pagi," ktnya waktu Pidato! ROTFL

Aduh!! ASYIK BERAT KEMAREN TUH!
Gila! Gue bener2 NEKAD ABIZ ke TMII cuma bawa 50RB di DOMPET! 30rb buat tiket masuk... beli Aqua 3rb. YAOLOOOO!! sisanya??? Buat TOL...

Heran, Kesambet apaan gue kemaren???
- Di Pesta Ucoq, makan ga abis!
- Ke TMII pake rok batik panjang yang keinjek melulu kalo ga diangkat.
- Duit pas2an! Habis pula!
- Dibayarin euy naik Kereta gantungnya :">

*colek2 Henny, Bundhoot, Sinta, Adis dan Lea... MUACH!

Rages of mine

I know I have never been able to be a good friend.
All I do is spoiling everything.
That's Why HE keep sending me "baddies" to be my friends.
Meanwhile the "goodies" are gone long time ago because they were hurted by me.
The Baddies? stay until they finish drinking the honey I made for them, and then left.

I realize one thing : the insecurity inside of me has made me a baddy.
My body languages keep screaming for "STAY AWAY FROM ME! or I hurt you again n again!"

May be I should close my doors, every single door I have, to avoid me hurt n getting hurted.
May be U think I'm stupid, chicken or, worse, Give up.
Anything U said is right. I dont care...

I dont care!
Thanks to U to teach me how not to care!

I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO SAY THAT!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT!
- Not caring,
- Leave whenever I want to,
- Not thinking about those people's Health, Happiness, Sadness, etc,
- Not trying to be a good company,
- Be selfish!
I LOVE TO BE ABLE DO THOSE!

But no...
HE The Almighty has never allow me to be a person like that!
I was made to feel the pains.
I accepted that.
I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT EVER SINCE LONG TIME AGO!
but Why people keep remind me to that?
Why people keep remind me of pains?

I AM WHAT I AM!
I AM WHAT HE MADE ME TO BE!

The Rages inside of me is getting bigger everytime I got hurted or hurt!

"Why did they do that?"
"Why did I do that?"

The same questions turn on and on for whole my life.
But through all that...
I have been wondering about these :
- Wonder why I am able to smile after getting hurted (tho' sometime I take time to recover)
- Wonder how I feel guilty for what they've done to me (by saying: it was my mistake)
- Wonder how I fell hard n get up again
- Wonder how I mirroring everybody.

Eventho I keep my rages, funny how it hidden when I'm on top condition.
Eventho I hid my insecurities, funny how it shows when I'm down

Why cant I be like you?
You are able to walk away like nothing had happened.
You are able to talk to them like nothing had happened.
You are able to leave without feeling guilty, NOT EVEN A BIT!
You are able not to think about your "victims".
HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?
I am wondering about people like these!

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YEAH YEAH!
I'M DOWN ONCE MORE!
WITHOUT KNOWING WHY!

Michelle

Michelle, ma belle.
These are words that go together well,
My Michelle.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble,
Tres bien ensemble.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
That's all I want to say.
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand.

I need you, I need you, I need you.
I need to make you see,
Oh, what you mean to me.
Until I do I'm hoping you will
Know what I mean.

I love you.

I want you, I want you, I want you.
I think you know by now
I'll get to you somehow.
Until I do I'm telling you so
You'll understand.

I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand, my Michelle.

Hihihi.. LOVE IT!
Used to listen to this on tape n mp3 of The Complete Beatles' Album.
hmm.. One of my fave songs of The Beatles.
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Lagi bingung...
Besok sabtu ada kopdar di Bandung dan di Jakarta.
Kampung Gajah or IHP?
Both are my precious ones. (hehehe.. a bit too much, really)
ah, pusing...
Let it be deh!

It's been Lovely days

I dont know...
I feel Loved, Cared..
Been Smilin' and smilin',
even my bones have been very painfully,
Not even my Mom's preaches can stop my lovely days.
(And she preached even more when I just simply smile at her when she preached!)

"... I dont know much,
But I know I love you
And That may be All I need to know..."

It's been three months since the first time I felt like this.
Without knowing about what or who make me feel this way.
May be I dont have to know anyway.

God, I turn this love back to Thee.
for it belongs to You, comes from You, given by You to me.
You are blessing me with so much love.
You have been pouring me with love untill it spills out of the glass.
untill Mom scared.. hihihihi...

I turn this love back to Thee..
I turn this love back to Thee..
I turn this love back to Thee..

Wew!

Vitamin abis kemaren, hari ini lgsg sariawan.

Batere abis kemaren, terpaksa beli di toko buku dulu (batere kalkulator).

Laper tengah malem, ngembat Yam (semacem ubi), huek! ga ada rasanya.
Tanya Mom, ktnya mestinya dicoel ke susu kentel.
Hayah! Kenapa kemaren ga bilang?
Kan bisa sekalian beli...

Siang makan kekenyangan, maagnya sakit.
Malem makan kebanyakan, maagnya makin sakit.

Halah!
Hihihihi...
Duduts ah!
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Berbunga2 ga jelas, plus ada seberkas rindu yang menyelip
Somebody miss me...
So Crazy It hurts!

like this song of Natalie Cole :

Even though its been so long,
my love for you keeps going strong
I remember the things that we used to do,
a kiss in the rain

Til the sun shined through,
Id try to deny it,
but Im still in love with you

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy,
ever since you went away

Every hour of every day,
I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy

No matter what I say or do,
there's just no getting over you

I can see the love shining in your eyes,
and it comes as such a sweet surprise
If seeings believing its worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,
we're starting forever now,
and I miss you like crazy

I miss you like crazy,
ever since you went away,
every hour of every day

I miss you like crazy,
I miss you baby,
a love like ours will never end
Just touch me and we're there again

---Musical interlude---

Just one night
and we'll have that magic feeling
like we used to do

Hold on tight
and whatever comes our way
we're gonna make it through
If seeings believing its worth the wait,
so hold me and tell me its not too late

We're so good together,
we're starting forever now
And I miss you like crazy,
I miss you like crazy
No matter what I say or do
theres just no getting over you

And I miss you (baby),
I miss you (baby),
all the tender love you gave me
When a feeling gets this strong,
you know the real thing come along

And I miss you,
I miss you like crazy baby,
only your sweet love can save me,

I miss you like crazy,
a love like ours will never end
Just touch me and we're there again,

Miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy

BUT there's a problem! and it is :

WHO MISS ME LIKE CRAZY till the vibrations hurt??
*sigh* sometimes I hate to have these senses.

The Pursuit of Happyness

The Pursuit of Happyness, film keren.

Sayang bgt, kita masuknya waktu film udah mulai 5 menit kali.
Ceritanya touchy deh...
True Story lho!
Jd Chris Gardner (Will Smith) jualan alat pengukur massa tulang untuk menghidupi istri dan anaknya. Setelah keliling menjajakan alat itu ke rumah sakit, tempat praktek dokter, tersisa sekian buah.
Linda (Thandie Newton), istrinya udah mulai ga tahan waktu sisa alat itu ga kejual2... selama 2 bulan nunggak bayar sewa apartemen. Linda mulai ngancem bawa anaknya ninggalin Chris.
Dan Chris ngamuk, "You may leave, but Christopher (Jaden Smith) stay with me!"

Ada perkataan Chris kepada Christopher yang keren bgt :

"DO NOT LET PEOPLE TELL YOU WHAT YOU CAN OR CANT DO. NOT EVEN ME!"

A very nice advice, really...

apakah Chris berhasil menjualnya sampe habis?
apakah Linda kembali bersama mereka?

Terus yang perlu diperhatikan : Aktingnya Jaden Smith yang NATURAL!!!
Aduh, dasar udah bakat dari ibu-bapaknya ya...
kalo Jaden bener2 serius, bisa kalah deh Will Smith nantinya..

Nonton aja sendiri deh yaaaa...
Yang Jelas, WORTH IT deh!

(DUH! tuh kan.. kalo pengen nulis, malah hilang kata2 yang td seliweran!)

:D :D :D :D

Kemaren nonton Music N Lyrics ber-4 sama Juli, n My Sisters.
Lucu jg sih, tapi sayangnya, film ini bukan jenis film yg bakal keinget terus. Begitu film habis, ya udah... habis. Finish! Keluar dr bioskop, udah lupa ceritanya.

Hugh Grant bergaya lapanpuluhan??? NORAK DEH!!!
Yg lumayan menarik perhatian di film ini adalah si Cora dengan segala keeksentrikannya. Top jg actingnya si Haley Bennet ini!

Selesai nonton, Juli lgsg pulang. Aku n sisters jln2 dulu, terus ketemu sama Ua. Ngobrol2 bentar, terus Qta pisah. Ua terusin belanja, qta ke Nando's. MAKANNNN!!!
Pulangnya jam 9, aku nonton lagi di rumah.
SSSTTTT.... jgn bil2 my Mom ya, aku bobonya jam 5 pagi tadi! *Parentless Nights*

BORED!

bosen lagi...
Ga tau mau ngapain lagi...

mau nonton, remote dipegang Mom.
mau browsing, blogwalking, dsb, ogah2an.
mau baca, kok ya males...
mau chatting, udah pada off..
mau main game, gameku abis trialnya.

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Pusing, batere hearing aidsku cepet abisnya euy!
satu rol isinya 6 batere = 75rb.
satu batere cuma cukup buat 3-7 hari.
tergantung pemakaian, kalo dipake tiap hari dari bangun mpe tidur lagi (kalo mau tidur, dicopot) ya cuma tahan 3 hari.
biasanya sekali beli 2 rol.
hitung sendiri deh sebulan mesti beli berapa rol.
gila kan?

Itu baru batere, belum vitamin2 (Yeah, my drugs! Long Live SIXTIES! :P ) yang begitu habis lgsg sariawan banyak bgt.

huah!

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hihihihihi... ah tidur aja!

Song in my head today

Jambalaya
by The Carpenters

Good-bye Joe, he gotta go, me oh my oh
He gotta go-pole the pirogue down the bayou
His Yvonne the sweetest one, me oh my oh
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

Thibodaux, Fontaineaux the place is buzzin'
A Kin-folk come to see Yvonne by the dozen
Dress in style the go hog wild, me oh my oh
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

(*) Jambalaya and a crawfish pie and fillet gumbo
For tonight, I'm a-gonna see my my-my cher a mi-o
Pick guitar, fill fruit jar and be gay-o
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

Settle down far from town get him a pirogue
And he'll catch all the fish in the bayou
Swap his mon to buy Yvonne what she need-o
Son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou

ASYIK BGT LAGUNYA!
Tapi nyoba2 dengerin dr cd-nya, ga kedengaran :(