Jatuh hati!

Iya, jatuh hati!
Sama Fahri, tokoh utama di novel Ayat Ayat Cinta!
dan Aisyah... duh, jd cemburu deh sama Aisyah... begitu beruntung memiliki Fahri yang .... *duh, Speechless ah!*

Banyak sekali quote yang mau aku tulis di sini, tapi bukunya ga tau dibawa Daddy ke bdo atau disimpen di suatu tempat, jd ga bisa nulisnya.. :(
Ini ada satu puisinya yg aku nemu di resensi2 blog :

Bidadariku...
namamu tak tertulis dalam catatan harianku
asal-usulmu tak terdetik dalam diskusi kehidupanku
merdu suaramu tak terekam dalam pita batinku
namun kau selalu hadir dalam setiap relung jiwaku
memberikan motivasi yang sangat berarti didiriku
jika nanti kita akan bertemu
aku akan menjagamu dengan seluruh jiwa dan ragaku
karena ku yakin kau adalah anugrah teragung dari allah kepadaku

Baca aja sendiri deh!
VERY-VERY RECOMMENDED!

Ya Allah, Ketemukan aku dengan Fahri-ku...
yang mencintai-MU lebih dari segalanya,
yang menempatkan-MU di atas segalanya,
yang bisa membawaku dan dibawa olehku ke pintu surga-MU
yang bisa menuntunku dan dituntun olehku ke jalan yang ENGKAU ridhoi
yang bisa menentramkan hati dan jiwaku dan ditentramkan olehku
yang bisa menjadi Imam-ku
yang bisa kuharapkan dan mengharapkanku
Dan aku bisa menjadi seorang Aisyah bagi Fahri-ku...

Ya Allah,
Tak ada lagi yang bisa kupinta selain kepada-MU
Maka ridhoi lah diriku,
Ridhoilah orang-orang tersayangku,
Jauhkanlah mereka dari murka-MU

Ya Allah,
masukkan aku ke dalam kelompok orang yang sabar, tabah dan ikhlas dalam menghadapi semua cobaan-MU...

IKHLAS
IKHLAS
IKHLAS

the voices say....

you are useless
you are nothing
you are hated
you are damned
you are unwanted
you are not worth it
you are unloved
they dont love you
they dont want you
they just be polite on you
die!
drink those (drugs) more!
doomed!
cut the vein!
and so on...

schyzophrenic? possible...
this is just one of deepest secrets of mine that I didnt tell anybody yet (except Santi of IHP, as she is a psikolog) not even my parents.
If "kambuh", I could fall into a depression.

Only when online, I can ignore them...
Only when Kopdar or meet a friend, I can "forget" it.
Only when I'm with you, I can turn it down.
Now... As I have no attention diversion anymore that my parents have cut out the i-net, they grow louder and louder...
I dont know... now they asked me to cut out my relationships by sms.
Now... Pls dont stop sms me.
Just dont stop! So I can turn my attention away from those devilish voices..

Mellon helps a bit but not when I have a quarrelling with parents or anybody.
Ah... Why did YOU give me what I wished in front of YOUR Holy House of Kabah when my parents disapproved anything YOU gave to me?

Yesterday...
I had a dream.
I saw somebody died
I called-out this person's name tried to wake her up.
the soul was standing behind me, looking sadly at us.
and I woke up.

This Ramadhan...
I cant feel it..
I do fast everyday
But I dont even feel hungry at all.
ah... See yaa when I can online again.
But I dont know when...

Mellon sayang...(2)

Hehehehe...
Ada2 aja tingkah Mellon...

Kemaren dia bangunin aku : jalan-jalan di dada, leher, dan jilat2 kupingku.
Td pagi, beda lagi caranya : jalan-jalannya di mukaku!
Bolak-balik di mukaku, rambutku, jilat2 leher...
Dan tiap kali aku duduk di depan kompie, dia naik ke pangkuanku terus main2 dan... TIDUR!
GEMESIN AJA DIKAU INI!!!
Dasar!

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Hmm...
Refrain lagu ini lagi berputar terus di kepalaku :

I WANNA DANCE WITH SOMEBODY(WHO LOVES ME)
06/06/1987 - 2 weeks at #1 - 16 weeks on chart

Clock strikes upon the hour
And the sun begins to fade
Still enough time to figure out
How to chase my blues away
I've done alright up 'til now
It's the light of day that shows me how
And when the night falls, loneliness calls

Oh! I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

I've been in love and lost my senses
Spinning through the town
Soon or later the fever ends
And I wind up feeling down
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart falls

Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
(Somebody who)
(Somebody who)
Somebody who loves me
(Somebody who)
(Somebody who)
To hold me in his arms
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart falls

Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

Don'tcha wanna dance, with me baby
Don'tcha wanna dance, with me boy
Don'tcha wanna dance, with me baby
With somebody who loves me
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Don'tcha wanna dance
Say ya wanna dance
Aha
With somebody who loves me

Aih... *BLUSHING*

Dan abis cari lirik lagunya, dpt jg lirik lagu One Moment In Time.
duh, lagunya lupa-lupa inget gitu...

ONE MOMENT IN TIME - 15/10/1988
2 weeks at #1 - 12 weeks on chart

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I face the pain
I rise and fall yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be
I will be free, oh
I will be, I will be free

Yeah... I will be free!
Free from all those broken hearts!
But not running from them, I WONT running!
I turn them back to THEE!

O Destiny...
Give me Strength to face those pains!
Give me Sincerity to face those trials!
Give me Patience to face my destiny!

Sweethearts of mine, I LOVE YOU!
Thanks for being my friends,
I'm NOTHING Without You!
GBU Always...

Mellon sayang...

Lucky me to have my Mellon to let free this hyperactive energy of mine.
Mellon sekarang udah aktif euy.
Lari2 ke sana ke mari, cakar sana gigit sini.
Tanganku habis dah digigitin Mellon.
Lucunya, kalo aku udah sibuk sama hp, Mellon lgsg gangguin : tarik2 tanganku, hpku, terus main2 di pangkuanku. Gitu jg kalo aku udah duduk di depan kompie. Sering kali, malah tidur di pangkuanku. Kucing bisa cemburu juga yaaa?
Ah, Mellon... You have my full attention...

Tapi ya ada akibatnya juga sih...
Cepet Drained!
Tidurnya lbh cepet plus siang jg tidur!
Lucunya lagi, aku tidur siang, Mellon JUGA ikut tidur di kursi kompie!
Aku bangun, dia jg bangun!
Ah, biar aja deh.. drpd dia tidurnya di kolong ranjangku.

Hmm... Mommy beli rujak yg ada ebinya, terus Mellon nyamperin melulu, kyk penasaran.

hehehehe.. Bau ebi ya? Entar aku beliin Friskies yg Seafood ya say....

Btw, nih Mellon naik lg ke pangkuanku, dan Diem!
Lho? ngantuk lg? baru aja td tidur dan main bentar sama my sis.

ah, tidur juga ah....
Nighty night, everybody...

Angst

Beginikah gambaran Ravenclaw?
Dengan karma negatif yang segitu banyak? yang melebihi karma positifnya?
Saling membalas dengan panas hati?
Ah... Ravenclaw yang malang...

Ravenclaw yang mestinya menjadi embun penyejuk di Hogwarts kini malah saling membakar?

Ke mana Ravenclaw-ku yang :
1. Bila benar, katakan benar.
2. Bila salah, katakan salah.
3. Bila ditegur, introspeksi diri.
4. Bila berbicara, berpikir dua kali sebelum mengutarakan.
5. Bila dipancing, pancingan itu tidak disambar begitu saja.
6. Bila terpancing, logikalah yang akan berjalan daripada emosi.
7. Tidak pernah merasa paling benar.
8. Tidak pula pernah mengatakan kebalikan dari fakta yang ada.
9. Mendapatkan SP1 saja udah tersiksa habis dan mencoba untuk menghindari SP SP berikutnya.

Ke mana???
Ah, Ke mana aku harus mencari Ravenclaw-ku?

Ravenclaw sejati akan berlaku seperti Padi di sawah : semakin berisi semakin merunduk.
Ravenclaw sejati tak akan berlaku gegabah melanggar peraturan yang ada.
Ravenclaw sejati lebih memilih untuk diam dan mendengarkan.

ah... Di mana harus mencari Ravenclaw-ku yang dulu pernah kubanggakan?

*was once a proud member of Ravenclaw*

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Aku namain kucingku : Mellon (baca: Melong)
Mellon udah mulai berani keliling-keliling dan mulai main-main denganku.
Aku pangku, si Mellon malah tidur!
Seneng deh... walaupun masih suka ngumpet2 di kolong lemari.

Huwahh, Nie n Kadir say... cepet sembuh yaaa...
Barengan demam begitu :(

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My Heart... my bleeding heart... stop bleeding, dear...
Too much things that remind me of him.
Strong! Just be Strong! Stronger than usual!

My Mind... my logic mind... wants to stop this heart's bleeds.
It wants to leave the place of darkness.
Strong! Just be Strong! Stronger than the Heart!

Mind n Heart...
must work in unison to getout of darkness.
Ah... wish I've never met him.

Maybe I'll go away from all these..
Going to my second homeland to get cured.
But it would have seen as runaway.
No! ENOUGH RUNNING!
FACE IT! JUST FACE IT!
DONT LET HIM WIN!

YOU!
What did YOU DO to ME???
Life has been hard before you came!
And YOU MADE IT HARDER!!!
Hard to stay, Hard to leave.
Especially when I was able to stop thinking about you, YOU CAME AGAIN INTO MY DREAM!

I WANT TO BE THAT "ME" ON THE LAST DREAM!
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY THOSE WORDS IN REALITY!

Yes, Mprass... I must admit that I'm still angry.
You are right, I am still mad.
Angry to myself!
for not able to stop me care for him!

God, Please erase his name from the wall of my heart!
I'd love to be like him : Not caring about him anymore.

Let this heart heals...
Let this heart buries the memories of him to the darkness.
Let this heart find another heart that is worth to be loved.

Surprised!

Pagi ikut Mom pergi.
Di jln, Ada sms, "Nih no gue! Jgn kasih tau yg lain ya no-nya!"
WAH???? HORE!!!
Surprised yg pertama!

Ah, aku pikir drpd ikut Mom ke dokter kulit dan nunggu sejam bengong di sana, mending diturunin di salon potong rambut. aku bil sama Mom begitu.
dan Mom setuju... Surprised yg kedua!
Abis cuci, begitu duduk, Didi (hairstylish langgananku) lgsg nyerocos : "ihhh.. ke mana aja? udah lama ga ke sini...."
"Iya nih... aku lg pengen panjang. bagus ga?"
Didi : "Ah bagusnya segini nih!" (dia nunjuk seleher) Surprise ketiga!!!
:( Ya udah... ikut aja.

Selesai potong, bayar, ngeliat ke luar... Duh si emak blm dateng! Ya udah nunggu deh...
Mom akhirnya dateng, aku nanya "Katanya sejam?"
Mom mllh ketawa... "nyasar! salah belok!"
Suprise yg keempat. (tumben si Emak nyasar!)
Qta ke Citoz!! Ketemu Nini, Ibu, Ua, dan Teh Indri!! Pangpang kok ga dibawa, Teh? :(
Belanja di supermarket. terus pulang.

di rumah, aku main Solitaire di kompie :D
terus Mom bil kl My Sis lg di jln pulang n bawa kejutan buat aku. "tunggu aja di bawah!"
My Sis dtg bawa kardus. "Wah??"
ternyata Anak Kucing!!! keturunan Persia! 3 bln umurnya!
Surprise yg kelima!

Cuma... kok diem bgt sih????
Ditaro di lt, malah ngumpet di bawa meja!!
Ditaro di kursi, meringkuk di sudutnya!
"Kamu knp milih yg ini?" tanya ke Sis.
Sis jawab : "Abis diem!"
Aku ngakak bgt!
Sis : "Iya, beda deh dgn yg lainnya, yg ini dipanggilin ga nyamperin, main jg ga! Pokoknya diem aja!"
Dasar!!!
Suprise yg keenam!

Pas ditaro di kandang, ribut bgt deh! ngeong2 kyk manggilin gitu!
Sama Sis dikeluarin terus dibawa ke kamarnya.
Aku masuk kamarku, main lagi. terus....
"Teh, tolong dong!"
"Apa?"
"kucingnya masuk ke kolong meja, ga mau keluar lagi!"
Ha???
Yaolo! tu ucing bener2 penakut bgt ya???
Aku ambil deh, terus...
Di gendonganku, kerasa bgt kalo dia gemeteran!!! (Surprise yang ketujuh)
pokoknya kasiaaaaaaaannnnnnnn bgt deh!
Aku sodorin susu di mangkok, ga mau. sodorin daging, ga mau!
PUSINK!
Iseng2, aku cocolin tuh susu, terus jariku yg basah krn susu aku sodorin ke moncongnya.
eh??? Dijilatin! (Surprise yg kedelapan)
Ya udah, sambil browsing, sambil nyusuin kucing! XP
Ini sekarang ni ucing tidur di perutku.
Lumayan udah gemetaran lagi kyk td.

Duh, seneng deh... dia tidurnya enak bgt!
Sekarang aku bingung... Surprise yang terakhir : Gimana Gue tidurnya?????
*garuk-garuk*

Jakarta DINGIN!

Setelah 3 hari superpanas (sampe AC-pun ga mempan!), hari ini Jakarta DINGIN!
Tanpa ac pun udah dingin! hihihihi.. jarang2 nih Jakarta dingin kyk di Puncak begini.
Tanpa matahari pula alias mendung dan sesekali hujan.

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hihihi..
Kemaren malem lagi ngobrol sama Mas C (dan Kobo), ada bayangan buku dan warna biru.
ya aku tanya ke Mas, "Mas, ada buku biru di situ?"
Mas jawab "ga tuh".
wah??? kecele lagi! Mas C pamit deh, "pulang dulu ya". OK deh...
Trus lagi ngobrol2 dengan Kobo, eh, Si Kobo ngomong : "Trin, liat deh blog buku-ku, warnanya biru lho sekarang!"
HA???
Spontan aku ngakak sendiri!
Duh! Finally it's back! After 7 months!
Walaupun blm jelas arahnya dari mana.
Mudah2an kedepannya nanti bisa lebih terkontrol, ga semaunya dia dtg dan pergi di saat yg salah.

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Sebel sm Edwin!
Salah nulis namaku meulu!
Akhirnya aku diemin tu sms.
Curhat ke Aufi, hasilnya Edwin malah ngeledek!
Huh! AWAS LO YAAAA....
Entar aku HEX lo!

mimpi itu...

Yah... Daddy... Wifonenya ga jalan tuhhh...

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Hmm...
td mlm mimpi :
Lo dtg ke rmhku, dan ngomong "You are My True Love" ke gue di depan Hubby(!)
dan Gue bilang ke Lo "Thank You, But I'm Sorry. As You know, I'm married, and We are not made for each other".

Lo masih ngeyel ngomongin bagaimana kita berhubungan emosional dengan erat di masa lalu.

dan aku jawab : "Bil, look at my eyes... You once had a special place in my heart, but you have wasted your chances and you made me say "Goodbye" to you; A prohibited word for me. It broke my heart, because I promised to myself : "Never say Goodbye, But Say See you later." Bil, I once wished to give you another chance, but your answer showed that you havent and wont change.

So I go on with my life n I've found someone who loves me as I love him here (holding on my hubby's hand, he was quiet, and let me speak for myself). Even you was invited to the reception. AND NOW you came to me, saying that I'm your true love and expected me to go with you??? Gees! What an EGO!
So, Bil, Thank you for your honesty, but It's too late... I'm sorry."

Lo terdiam lama. (Ngahuleung, urang sunda bilang mah!)

"Sekarang permisi dulu, my baby needs me."

Dan aku bangun n think about the dream.
Another real dream...
hihihihihi.. My hubby di mimpi itu ga ngomong apa2, cuma diem nungguin. Tdnya dia mau masuk ke ruang keluarga to give a private session, tapi aku minta dia tinggal, dan baru bergerak masuk karena our baby nangis.
*Blushing*
Hihihihi... ah, it was a dream.. but I hope that part of "Hubby and Baby" come true. Amien!
*BLUSHING*

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Winda said it means I've just started to get over him by saying "Tq but I'm Sorry"
Well then.. Good news..

And for You, Dir... I hope you can sort it out with your ex.
And Aufi say... #-o 3 HILANG LAGI??? OMIGOD!!! Ah Opih...
And Nie say... I wish you make it, honey! You must go as high as possible for yourself and me!
And Edwin say... pls take a good nap, will ya?

AND LAST BUT LEAST! FOR ALL OF YOU, CHEERS UP!

GEMPAAAA!!!

Hiihihi....
Gempa! jam 12.04 malem!
Lagi duduk abis nonton Lintas Malam TPI (ada gue lagi lho! :D bareng IHP di Talkshow Aksara kemaren) di sofa with my sis, kita sama2 sibuk sendiri-sendiri; dia lagi sms-an, aku lagi baca..
Terus sofa goyang2. tadinya aku mau ngomong : "Jangan goyang2 dong..."
tapi kita liat2an gitu! kata2 yg udah di lidah, ga jadi aku omongin.
Hihihi.. keliatan bgt kalo dia jg mau ngomong yg sama!
"Gempa???" kataku akhirnya. Gila, lama juga itu sofa goyang2.
Akhirnya qta berdua nyadar terus ke kamar Mom.
Di kamar, Dad (yang tdnya udah tidur) duduk tegak di kasurnya, sementara Mom lagi sholat.
Tampang Dad lucu bgt deh!
Aku sms ke Gajah, Sobat2ku dan Edwin : "GEMPA!!!!"
Edwin bales : "Iya, di 4ls pd 7bt. lagi record data." Terus sms berikutnya dari Edwin lagi "6,17 SR, Pusat Gempa Indramayu"
WEH????
Win, masih belum bobo? Hati2 ah! badan hancur entar, say!

Eh, ada sms dari Isdah," =)) abis lupin keluar, di Malang gempa." Bundhoot jg.. "Bdg Gempa!"
Aftereffect on me : the air felt different and my ear kept "listen" to sounds like drum being beaten.
(Papandayan jg ikut bangun ya..)

Metrotv DODOL! Marqueenya ngaco! "... tidak mempengaruhi aktifitas Gn berapi di Sumbar, yakni Gn Talang, Tandikat dan MERAPI"
Sejak kapan Merapi pindah ke Sumatra???
Merapi itu kan di YGY! Yg di Sumbar bukannya MARAPI?
Hati2 ah! Remember, WRONG SPELLING CAN CREATE CHAOS!

JENG ENDA!!!
Ih, Jorok deh! GA PERNAH NGEFLUSH! =))
Kasian Mbak Nita, tiap kali mau pake.. "ENDAAAAAAA!!!" =)) =))
Mudah2an Gaga ga kyk gitu yeee... Mbak Nita bakal tambah pusyink deeehhhh.. :P
*Gubrak* Tu Foto yang itu lagi yaaa... Ga ada foto lain??? :P :P :P

Dirsay, I hope I can help you on your problem.
As to that, first, you should change your number, d'you know?
Dont forget to send me your other number, will you?

Opih sayy... No news at all euy! Yesterday n Today! :(
I hope my advice works for you!
Tell me if you did it!

Oh iya... kemaren ada sms dari Diffyers lho, Dir!
"Geblek, bs2-nya mraduk nongol di kompas!"
"Wah, lbh ganteng drpd aslinya! kok bs sih?"
"Ada Hantu nongol di situ!"
"Wah.. Ada Cho dan Marduk di Kompas!"
"Baru tau kalo Kadir suka Harry Potter juga, jadi Hagrid kah?"
hihihihihi...

And then...
Go to Bdg tomorrow @ 8am.
We'll be goin home on Sunday morning.
I hope I can ol at Mess using MGI's connection :D

I'm expecting you to come to my home, Dir.
Sms me ok? ASAP.

A song that played in my head over and over again...

I give her all my love
That's all I do
And if you saw my love
You'd love her too
I love her

She gives me everything
And tenderly
The kiss my lover brings
She brings to me
And I love her

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

This song...
is played in my head these days...

I've been hoping there'll be someone who'll sing this song for me one day.
*blushed*
ah, never mind it..
just a girl's dream :">

*to ally, so sorry I cant upload the song for you, now.
one day, maybe..
I promise you.
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Hihihihi...
Hari Senin ke Planggi bareng Nie.
Huah! I MISS YOU SO MUCH DARLING!
keliling2 sama Nie, aku cari keypad dan batere hp.
Nie beli baju buat Faza.
*Dearest Nie, why I never can write the details about what happened on the day we are together?*

At home, sms-an dgn kadir, terus....
Aku matiin hp, mau ganti batt yang baru terus dicharge pertama kali 8 jam.
Begitu besok pagi dinyalain, yang pertama masuk : "JANGAAANNNN!! jahat amat sih balesnya! Pake matiin hp segala!"
*hihihihihi* sumpah ngikik abis, say... Sorry bgt...

Hari Selasa, pagi2 ada sms dari Anne dan Ely soal Offline kecil2an.
*Protes* kadonya susah amat sih 10rb??? MAU BELI APAAN???
Ya udah, berangkat abis makan siang ke Planggi, and sms Kadir n Nie aku otw to planggi
*Nie bales : "Kenapa ga bilang??? aku udah di rumah!" Aku jg baru tau, sayyyy....*

muter2 cari keypad buat hp *GILA SYUSYAAAAAAAHHHHH!!* ga nemu.
muter2 cari barang buat tukeran kado, Ga nemu!
Untung udah siapin dr rumah, jaga2 kalo ga dpt.
Jam 5, nunggu di Dunkin, beli donut satu dan thai ice tea.
Heran ga dtg2 tu anak2 mpe sekitar jam 6...
EH GA TAUNYA!!!! Mereka ngumpul di luar!
*DASAR DUDUTS*

Pindah ke atas, cari makan.
Aku pesen Salad yang GILE BGT GEDENYAAA!!!
kalo aku yg dulu sih segitu mah HABIS!
Sekarang????? nyisa setengahnya! :((
Padahal prinsipku : jangan pernah sisakan makananmu!
Untuk sekarang ini, mesti melupakan hal itu dulu nih!

Pulangnya, I CANT SLEEP AT ALL!!
Bolak-balik di ranjang, akhirnya pindah ke kamar Ma.
dan .. SAMA JUGA GA BISA TIDUR!!!
OMIGOD!
total tidur hari ini mungkin cuma 3 jam kali.

Dirsay, Thx bgt kemaren ngobrol2 lagi kyk dulu.
Thx jg traktirannya.
Sayang Nde ga jadi dtg.
Tapi jujur aja, kalo Nde jd dtg, mungkin dia cuma jd raket nyamuk kali...
*lari dr tendangan Nde*
I miss you and the Slipi-ers SO MUCH!
One day I will go visit TSP.

Dirsay, Did I do or say anything wrong that night?
Because it seems to me that you are a bit avoiding me this day.
Tell me what's wrong, pls?

I LOVE YOU, MY NIE, DIRSAY, AUFI, EDWIN AND ALL DIFFYERS!
*MUACH!*

And Especially for Aufi, MUACH MUACH mpe basah!
You made me realized that I'm A fighter eversince I was baby.
That's WHY I always fight with everybody, everything, especially myself.

Therefore, to all of my friends, I apologize for everything, especially to those who are close enough to me.
I know You've been trying HARD to stay by my side.
I'm Grateful of it! I Know I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PAY IT BACK.
I'm trying to do my best for you!

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Hari ini ke Cipete, arisan keluarga.
SEPI BGT deh! Pada kemana yang lain?
Ponakan2ku jg ga ada euy.. :(

Pulangnya terusin terjemahan yang kemaren2 terlantar gr2 terus2an sakit.
*HUAH!* I'm going through Chapter Eleven now, say.. dikit lagi Chapter 12 deh...

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Must sleep, it's 12 am now.
Dont know when I'll be ol again.

Nighty night...

Ah....

Ternyata... masih begini saja.
Belum sepenuhnya lepas dari hiperbilirubin, Ga akan kembali seperti dulu lagi.
Ga akan 100% lagi.

Well, whatever...

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I'M GLAD TO FIND MY DIFFYERS BACK!!!
AUFI! EDWIN! KADIR!
*MUACH MUACH MUACH!!!*
I'd love to see you all again, my dear!!!!
Forgive me to bring you some shock, Win... ;))
I'm expecting your coming to my home next August, ok Win?
Dont forget to take Aufi and one of your snake for me, Sweetums.

Say, pls send me XP Setup CD, would you?

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And I've finished reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.
Really, You'd think it happened only in one night, the Camp Scenes..
And DOBBY!

It was fun @ QB and Aksara.
(Ah, Why Cant I write about Funtimes in blog?)

And The Dream!
You hugged me from behind my back..
the way you hugged me like you wont release me again..
When I turned around to see you...
I saw you, wearing huge smile, and your face shone brightly.
It seems to me that you were a happiest man in the world.

I wish it happen to you soon or later.
I really hope that happen to you.

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Ah, Mommy start to preach again...
I'll continue writing next time.

Huee????

Lepas dari hiperbilirubin, dateng penyakit lain..
halah! hihihihihi...
jadi gampang pusing, mual dsb.
Dan diomel Emak gr2 sms-an waktu sakit kemaren bikin tagihan yg .... *BUSYET BGT GEDENYA!*

Td siang pergi ikut Mom ke Poinsquare setelah ngelayat temen haji Mom.
cuma ke supermarketnya doang sih.. tapi lumayan bikin pusingku kambuh lagi.
But I didnt tell Mom. No! She doesnt need to know this.

Akhirnya UPS Baru dtg...
merknya LAPLACE PHASOR 1200.
tapi ada yg bikin pusing : colokan monitornya bagaimana????
monitorku ga ngambil listrik dr PC, lgsg ke colokan listrik.
nah masalahnya UPS ini cuma ada colokan2 .... (duh istilahnya apa sih??)
Kompie colok ke ups, monitor dan Kabel telp (buat internet) jg ke ups.
Sementara monitorku tipe colokannya bukan dr PC!
jd kalo mati listrik... kompie tetep nyala tapi monitor mati!
PERCUMA kan???
Ada kabel adaptornya ga ya? namanya apaan sih?
nanti mau beli!

WIMODE GILA!
apanya yg 245,5 KBPS??? Nyatanya cuma 0,6 KBPS!!!
aku mau dl software buat ups-nya ajaaaa.. dari td sore jam 3 mpe sekarang jam 11 mlm masih DELAPAN PERSEN DOANG!!!
udah pake GETRIGHT pdhl!!
:((

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Oh iya, kemaren ikut talkshow Harry Potter di QB Kemang
Tamunya : Rama dan Utri
Rama dkk-nya cukup bergairah ikut acara talkshow-nya.
tapi Utri? Manyun dan diem terus deh.. gerakan tubuhnya seperti males atau ga pede ikutan talkshow-nya.
Sayang bgt deh..

I told you, Anne, about the Audiobook dan the Braille Books :)
It was your first time to see the audiobook looks like, wasnt it?
hihihihi... I heard the sound but as usual it was just mumbling sounds to me.

And .. :"> :"> :"> "NE!" hihihi... JADI MALU!!!
Suaraku pasti kenceng bgt deh mpe Bunda Yessi kaget gitu!
maksudku ngasih tau Anne spy ngambil mic dr Rama (yg udah nyodorin micnya buat diambil Anne). Tapi..
hihiihihi....

Ketemu lagi sama Hadi, Anne, Wahyu, dan Mita...!!!
I miss you all!!

See you again tomorrow At kuali bocor!

2 Minggu jadi 4 Minggu!

Dari yang 2 mgg trus ditambah lagi 2 mgg...
Jadi total 4 mgg Bedrest.
Huah, jadi bener2 terisolir, bosen... SUPERBOSAN!
Hihihihi... Gara2 Superbosen, aku ngomel2, marah2, down, mpe ada beberapa orang yg jd korban kebosenanku. *Lirik Abi, Lia, Nie, Edo, dll.
Sorry ya sayyyy... bener2 SORRYYYYY BGT!

Dan sepertinya aku ga akan pernah sembuh bgt deh.
Ga boleh capek atau kambuh lagi!

Kemudian selama sakit dan superbosen itu, acara IHP di Aksara Kemang, yg tempatnya sebenernya deket bgt dr rumah (bisa jalan kaki), jadi kelewat. AIH BETEEEEEEE!!!!
Dan acara Kopdaran Gajah yang biasanya aku bela2in ikutan juga ga bisa ikutan!
Tambah BT lagi!

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Kemaren arisan keluarga di Puncak, GILA SUPER MACET!!! Yang mestinya cuma 1-2 jam ini jadi 7 jam!!! Dr rmh jam 9 sampe di Vila Keluarga di Cipanas JAM EMPAT SORE! LAPERRRRRR ga makan siang!
Aku sms sm Yaya, Yaya bilang ada bis masuk jurang di Ciloto.
Ha? Ya pantes aja atuh!

Seperti biasa, jail-jail semua dan pasti ada yang nangis.
Sayang ga lengkap! Kurang 2 keluarga :Kakang dan keluarga tebet.

Aku masih pengen nulis, tapi udah disuruh off. :(

Hmm.. kapan ol lagi yaaa??? :(

Hiperbilirubin lagi

Well...
What Can I Say?

Senin Pagi, bangun2 lgsg muntah cairan kuning pahit. Dan aku udah curiga kalo itu cairan empedu.
Malem ke dokter, terus Selasa Pagi cek darah.
Hasilnya : Bilirubin totalku ada 4 mg/dl. Sedangkan normalnya : di bawah 1 mg/dl
Seperti dugaanku, Dokter bilang : Hiperbilirubin.
Dokter cuma bilang : Istirahat di tempat tidur selama 2 mgg.

Ini yg ketigakalinya aku hiperbilirubin gini.
Pengalaman terakhir waktu kul dulu, disuruh makan yg manis2 (permen, ah pokoknya Gula), Kerang, udang (Zat besi deh).

Jadi terpaksa off dulu selama 2 mgg yaaaa.. kecuali kalo Parents ngasih ijin ol sebentar, sekedar pengusir bosan.

See yaa... :)

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*Copy-paste dari Blog Om Pri

Jawaban untuk "Notyrfriend"

Hihihi...
I clapped at your effort on memorizing my blog's address, opened your internet explorer, typed this blog's address (http://loopeen.blogspot.com/), pressed enter or clicked "Go!". And then patiently waited for my blog to appear on your internet explorer (by telkomnyet, it took a long time to be fully loaded, I know, a very looonnngggg time, really...), and scrolled down to find my shoutbox, thought of a nickname and a fake web to make sure that I will not know your true id. Then ah... you've found one good name : "Ntyrfriend". based on "Not Your Friend" means "Not my friend". I got the point...
Then you wrote those "hatemails", Carefully thinking and writing not to show your true id and hoping that I will be intimidated by your writings.

I'm touched, really... I admire it.
BUT You've forgot TWO simple things : I am a freak and I am far more used to it.
For I was treatened by most of my school fellows the way you do now. Even worse than that, in fact.
And, as a freak, the more you threatened me like that, the happier I become. Because you have made my day colourful.
As to that, I'm thankful. Bless You!

One Question for you, Is that all you got for me? If it is, I feel terrible sorry for you. Like I said above : My school fellows treatened me far worse than that.

Tapi... Sudahlah... Gue ga mau memperpanjang masalah yang gue sendiri ga tau ujung pangkalnya. Sedih gue liat lo mempermalukan diri sendiri kyk gini, say...
Dont go biting your nails too much, because it'll bleed.
Untuk "teriakan"mu selanjutnya, gue hapus biar lo ga malu2in diri sendiri.

This would be my last word for you. If you still want to continue the quarrelling, It's all up to you. I'm not going to play your game, dear :)

GBU Always

Susahnya jadi Nocturnal

As a nocturnal, otakku bisa berpikir dengan jelas pada saat orang2 sudah tidur dengan pulasnya. Aku udah nyadarin itu sejak mulai kuliah dulu, saat sedang ber"nostalgia" dan mengingat bagaimana aku begitu susah dibangunkan pagi2 sehingga selalu telat setengah jam atau lebih ke sekolah padahal jarak antara sekolah dan rumahku cuma 5 menit pake mobil kalo lagi ga macet. Sampe2 Mom bawa aku ke Sanatorium Darmawangsa untuk berkonsultasi dengan psikolog yg bernama Bu Tita selama bertahun-tahun. Ga berhasil dengan Bu Tita, Mom bawa aku ke MMC ke Psikolog Prof Titi. tapi di sini cuma sebentar.

Aku menyadari aku baru bisa mengerjakan tugas2 kuliah (dan pekerjaanku saat ini) pada waktu yg ganjil bagi orang2, yaitu setelah jam 10 malam. Aku bisa saja mengerjakannya sebelum jam 10, tapi ga bisa maksimal karena ga bisa konsentrasi, jadinya cuma satu paragraf atau kurang. Sementara sesudah jam 10 (lebih baik lagi sesudah jam 12-1 malam sampai subuh menjelang) bisa berlembar2 yang selesai diterjemahin.

Namun Mom ga mau dan ga bisa terima kalo mengerjakannya pada saat2 "cemerlang" itu. Padahal siang-siang tuh bawaan ngantuk melulu. dipaksa ngerjain juga cuma dapet maksimal 1 halaman! Kalo pergi dengan Mom siang2, pasti ada omelan mengenai nguap2 yang cukup sering dan tidur selama di jalan. "Siang nguap melulu! Ga bagus!"
Mau ngerjain terjemahan juga... EEUUHHH! BUNTU ABIS! Sementara jam malemku (harus udah tidur) jam 1!
Sampai terpikirkan mengembalikan saja buku itu ke GPU. Malu ga selesai2!

Bagaimana bisa mengerjakannya kalo gitu????

Tak tahu mengapa....

Sebelum aku tahu akan artinya cinta
Kutelah dibawanya ke sana
Setelah dia pergi, baru aku mengerti
Kutelah jatuh cinta kepadanya...

#Oh... Aku rindu
Katakan padanya aku rindu
Oh Burung... Nyanyikanlah
katakan padanya aku rindu

Lagu "ini rindu"-nya Alm. Farid Hardja berputar2 terus di kepalaku.
Lupa lanjutannya,
Ada sih satu lagi lagu yg sedang "mengganggu"ku, cuma lupa judul lagunya.


Hmm... Sial abis...
Baru nyadarin ini : Tiap kali aku mulai melupakannya, mulai ga mikirin lagi, dia nongol gitu aja di mimpi!
Yang lebih nyebelin lagi : nongolnya diem aja, cuma ngeliatin muka cemberut seperti ga rela aku lupain dia!
Yaolo! Beraninya ngasih tanda cuma di mimpi! Without word at all!
Sumpah, Chicken Abis!
Huh! Sini deh LO! Jgn cuma berani nongol di mimpi! BE A MAN! JANTANLAH KAU!

Halah! ngomel2 gini di blog jg percuma deh! ga akan dibaca sama dia!
Andaikan beneran dia baca jg, tampaknya ga akan ngaruh sama sekali.
egonya yang segede alam semesta pasti ngehalangin perasaan yang sesungguhnya.

DASAR CHICKEN!! Petok-petokkkk!!!
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Mudah2an hari sabtu flu sembuh, terus ke Planggi
- Beli PCMCIA buat Telkomsel Flash.
- Ikut rapat
- SELESAIIN TERJEMAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Deadlocked

Walaupun aku udah dikasih tahu dr bulan lalu spy siap2 koneksi diputus, ga nyangka cepet aja, jadi jg kemaren diblok dan Mom berencana ga akan bayar lagi.

Mom sih keliatannya seneng aja koneksi diputus, ktnya : "Kamu ga akan tidur malem lagi"
Duh, Mom... Kalo koneksi diputus, mau ga mau, terpaksa pake dialup. Sedangkan di mana2 yg namanya Dialup tuh yaa... murahnya jam 1-5 pagi toh???
Well... You have been very wrong, Mom, in thinking I wouldnt be sleeping At One!

Sempet ngamuk jg td gr2 Dnet jg diputus! :(
And Mom didnt tell me about that.

Dan hari ini aku pake telkomnyet, sebelumnya aku bilang sama Mom biar siap2 bayar telp+telkomnyet 1 jt-an.
Jadi, Mom sayang... kalo tagihan lbh dr itu, pls PLS DONT BLAME ME, ok?

U've closed my window to the world.

Yang aku pikirin cuma "Gimana caranya nge-mods milis dan jagain forum tanpa kabelnet?"
On that case, must ask Teh Ninit to give Rara another permission to aprrove messages of new members.
Apalagi mods ihp yg lain ga pernah ngecek Folder Spam!

Sms Bunda, aku ansab lagi dr gajah sementara, mpe ga-tau-kapan.
Sms Henny, Edo, Winda, dll, ngasih tau kl i-net diputus.
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Bakal Flu lagi nih... tenggorokan udah gatel bgt, udah mulai mampet2...

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L'il Faza is beautifull!
I'm glad to see her and her mother again.
despite the fact that I was "GA PUAS" karena ada orang lain di situ (her Hubby).

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Gusi berdarah terus, sariawan, mimisan, plus gejala flu.
pusing mau sikat giginya! pdhl tu sikat udah yg soft.
Kemaren ketauan jg sama Mom, beratku sekarang 43,5 kg.
Alhasil kena omel abis2an!

Dah ah! Bobo dulu.
Selasa, Insyaallah, ol lg di Cibitung (tawaran dari Pa, "ga ada yg make")
Mesti milih2 lagi milis2 yg mau diansab sementara. :(

*Terjemahan susah euy.....*

WBD

hmm...
lumayan, walaupun sepi (banyak stand yg baru diisi hari sabtunya) pdhl WBD buka dr Kamis.

Selama di sana, kok ihp pd tegang semua sih?
Walaupun tak dikatakan, aku tau kok kalo banyak yg marah.
I could feel the negative emotions eventhough nobody say anything.
Eventhough (almost) everybody acted like nothing happen.

3 hari ke sana, aku terpapar emosi negatif gitu, ya akhirnya drained.
Hari minggu, tidur seharian jadinya.
Hari ini juga masih capek berat.
ditambah lagi Daddy yg emang capek abis pulang dr China kemaren...
HUAH!
Menjadi2 dah!

Butuh counter euy....